=)

Here and There

2011-05-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

Why here and there.. There are a lots of why yet a lots of things I don't dare to ask.. Ahaks!

Okay, camp is 3 more days! Assignment is due-ing soon! How to survive?

My prayer is of course I survive!

Will be sharing in camp. Need Him so badly. =)

It Will

2011-05-20T18:57:00.002+08:00

It will happened again as I know it before.

Giving a time and space for each others.

I'm still learning on understanding each others.

I'm trying to have that understanding.

At the same time, I know I shouldn't let my emotion to mess up stuff.

That's why sometimes expectation high is not a good thing yet I shouldn't have this kind of mindset.

I know I know... Sometimes you know... Just the mind, emotion, heart, feeling, soul, spirit and etc mess up together..

I need a CLEAR MIND!

“Expectation is the root of all heartache.”

—	William Shakespeare

101

2011-05-11T00:10:00.003+08:00

Didn't know that my last post was actually the 100th post for this blog. May be that time I'm just overly emotion and down. The after effect finally had gone. Assignments wave coming again. Presentation for tomorrow. An assignment due this Friday and another for next Friday.A lot of time need to spend just for one assignment as it is more on media side. For an example, the assignment which going to due this Friday actually need to do voice recording making Children Story and Advertisement. Thank God that within 1 day I can finish up for 1 recording. I have one more to record, need some inspiration. =)

"I will rise on eagle's wing before my God, fall on my knees, and rise.. I will rise.." song playing on my headphone. Sang by Chris Tomlin.

As I just entered a year elder and legal for now to vote. 21 don't actually really make a difference except for some stuff. Just need more of Him.. because I'm nothing without Him.. 2 weeks back I lead PSP, that's something new to me. Shiver while I'm waiting for the first half an hour, but after that God just brought me through.. Insanely scare at the sametime excited. He brought me through =)

Hold and Heal

2011-05-02T23:21:00.002+08:00

After all, I realize that what is really matter actually doesn't matter at all..

Every fights and arguments had make me so tired and weary..

God, I need that breakthrough and I want You to break me..

Am I really so bad?

Remove where am I now if seriously I'm just so bad..

But God used a friend reminded me..

Don't fall in the lies of the devil..

I nearly reach the ignorance state but I cannot and I should not..

Because I want God reconcile this and heal her and me..

I may not good enough in things that I do but God knows what is the best I given in..

God, I need You to hold heal my heart.. so badly..

Counting Down

2011-04-28T20:44:00.003+08:00

Counting down 3 hours and 15 min more and I'm gonna enter another year of being 'wiser'

I don't feels the age I am in right now.

Can't believe it.

A lot of people will celebrate their 21st Bday with big party..

But for my family it is just another year of getting elder and I'm quite getting use to it.

21 doesn't make much different in life.

21 doesn't mean you can do anything without asking your parents.

I still have to. What to do? Because I'm under their care.

21 should be another year of great year!=)

Yours not mine

2011-04-20T12:26:00.002+08:00

May be it is just not meant for me.

Thoughts running in my mind about why

I need God's miracle to happen but will it really happen?

I doubt...

May be it never ever is for me.

Is it a lie or a truth?

Thoughts like *you can just inform and no need ask*

But in my heart I know I can't be like that.

I should ask rather than just inform.

God, what did you actually instore for me? I need that miracle to happen so badly.

But the end, it is not about me but Yours.

Though this is my desire.. But the end is Your desire and will be done..

Precious Ones

2011-04-14T19:08:00.003+08:00

Simple and relax one. Always wanting to have a personal retreat but it never happened. Finally in this lovely and my most favourite month, I had it with accompany of Eileen. Told myself I need that so much after nearly a year. Asked her 'what is the one thing you received from God in this retreat'. She shared. In this retreat, it's so nice just to dwell in Him under a tree and besides the beach. Emo time with Him. He knows I love it so much!=P One thing I got from Him as I was reading book and His Word. That is drawing happiness and fulfill desires other than from God, disappointment and discouragement for sure happened because no one is perfect in this world. No one will able to fulfill our desires other than Him who are the only Perfect-er. Got the chance to walk at the beach, sit at the rock read and listen to worship song.. I just enjoyed that. Yesterday evening, when I'm listening to In Better Hand, suddenly I was overwhelmed by His love while looking at Him painting. Tears just 'bertakung' there..

His love is just so marvelous..

What is little thing?

2011-03-27T01:04:00.003+08:00

What is little thing for you?

For me, little things mean a lot for me

Because I appreciate single thing that happened or done by people..

Really want to be grateful of what You've done..

There'll be times I'm very nonsense and childish..

But You never leave me even the whole world left me alone

The more I seek You, The more I find You

The more I love You

A moment

2011-03-17T00:26:00.003+08:00

Need a moment just to clear my mind and my schedule

Causes me unable to sleep again

Ugh.. Dislike that..

Need all of You to be in my life than anything else..

Don't want to be alone...

11th of March

2011-03-12T01:16:00.002+08:00

Just a snap of hand, earthquake and tsunami took away lives. 4 millions of houses no electricity and all. How many weeks did they need to recover. Hundreds of people went missing, their bodies may just washed away to the oceans. Lives just taken away. This actually make me kind of angry to those who says they want to die or commit suicide. Life is not for them to decide die or not. When 2 plus near 3pm, earthquake hit Japan, tsunami destroyed different places. That time, I knew that where I was and what I'm doing. I'm attending Pr Mark Drake's class about Grace. That time, I'm so sleepy due to lack of sleep. Life it looks so weak but actually life is not weak at all! Because it is due to it's strong, life are given! Babies are born! Because life is strong! I hope those who are affected, please Lord, may Your grace to sustain them! Give them hope! Those who lost their love ones, comfort them LORD! All of us need Your mercy and grace!

Happy 1st Anniversary

2011-03-01T10:46:00.002+08:00

One year ago, today is the day I get to know all of my SOM 2010! Missing a lot of them. God has brought us through so fast. Thank God for His faithfulness! I want to continue to fly high and last long in His journey.. Thank You Daddy for cling on to me and never leave your hand to let me alone! Looking back, I used 1 and a half year just to forget and forgive about the incident. Thank God I able just to leave for 3 months to refresh, recharge, equip and all. Wow, DADDY, just want to say so much of thank You!=)

Last Year

2011-02-27T02:46:00.002+08:00

Last year, this date and this time, I'm already in KL.. So fast is already 1 year. Thank God for the 3 months break and refreshing by God. Thank God for His faithfulness to me all the way! It has been Him who make me through and changed me. Love you DADDY!=) Will update more on 1st March =)

I thought

2011-02-12T11:23:00.000+08:00

I thought... and obviously I have thought and seen wrongly...

Take me to the place

2011-02-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

Take me to the place, where I can see You face to face.. Too many distractions and I don't want to be distracted! Am I? Don't know.. BIG BIG BIG DADDY! Need a hug *Hugs*

Emotion

2011-01-31T21:04:00.002+08:00

Emotion is something everyone has. But hardly someone will understand others emotion. BIK BOK BIK BOK... heartbeat beating... Spent my time in Straits Quay listening song, looking others at the same time, observe others, young children, adults, couples... Look at the sky, talk to God.. Emo moment with God.. think about ministry, think about life, think about my future.. One thing I am still under moulding is the area of Security.. It seem to be so hard to conquer it.. But Jesus has already won the victory and I should be victor over it... It always come back.. My prayer is I will secure in Christ one day..

Chinese New Year

2011-01-28T14:55:00.002+08:00

Few more days and it gonna be CNY! Relatives and friends are coming back hometown..

Want to specially welcome My dear Miss Loke back home!

Past few weeks have been crazily busy with presentation, meetings and all..

It's time to slow down.. seriously..

Currently praying over some stuff.. Waiting upon the Lord what He want to say about its..

Overall, I'm happy and excited God gonna do and doing..

But one thing I know.. seriously need to slow down and rest...

Thinking...

2011-01-18T13:09:00.002+08:00

Due to my lovely dear from Malacca complain my blog very quiet... Hmm... I don't know she want song or new post. LOL... So now I am actually in College's library can be said rotting while waiting for my next class. This few days been thinking what if I can't achieve some stuff by this year, will I feel guilty? I know God loves me and I love Him, so what if I didn't do it enough? Will I strive by guilt? I know I don't want that. What if not even one? Certain subjects or topics are too subjective. We can argue argue, discuss discuss, the end, different people will have different conviction, different mindset on it. So who is right? I think that's what only God knows overall. Why do we need to fight over it? As long as the name of Jesus is lifted high, why do we need to fight against each other? Next stuff that make my mind thinking is did I push someone too hard? I've done my best, I don't know whatelse can I do besides pray. Really don't know what to do... I believe they will grow one day, they will learn one day... =) Btw, I am not emo-ing okay? It's good to think but not over thinking =)

Want To Do Before 21

2011-01-09T01:25:00.004+08:00

Okay, a few nonsense and random things that I don't always do or do at all for the pass 20 years. Hope that before April 29, I will do that.

1. Watch Sunrise

2. Watch Horror movie in cinema (Yea, I don't watch horror movie much) -DONE

3. Want to ride a motor/sit on a motor around (Yea, I don't sit motor more than 5 times in my life)

4. Go to airport and shout where there is plane flying over

5. Sit at the beach whole night, listen to songs and stare at the sea (It sounds very impossible because mum will just chop me into pieces)

6. Go for gold class/premium class to watch movie

7. Go for a high class and fine dinning for dinner (Which sounds very impossible also)

Most of it sounds very impossible, well, pray and see how =)

Looking Back

2011-01-06T23:17:00.003+08:00

Looking back... My heart melted for God... How much He has changed me in term of my character, personality, and everything. Without Him, it gonna be without the Qing Ling of today. I fell, and He cling on to me and never lose me from His arm, and said 'Hey, let's stand up and do it again.' I always like looking back because God has really indeed done amazing stuff in my life. I sing of His faithfulness to me. I know more to come, I know more learning will come, more changes will take place. Overall, I am His daughter and He is delighted in me. =)

Excited

2011-01-02T03:49:00.002+08:00

I supposed be sleeping.. I ter-activated my brain just now by thinking through some stuff when I trying to sleep. So the end is I can't sleep. It has been an issue for me, but it's okay! Daddy still with me!=) 1st of Jan, I started it with a good time of talking, planning and discussing for what we wanna do and help our girls and youth ministry. I really thank God for never leave and give up on me. With it, this is who am I today that God who mould and still in processing to be better for Him alone. I am just so excited what gonna do for this year! Whether is in the girls, in the church as well as my life. Believe that God gonna make it colourful for us! Though first day of the year already get to know some issues but you know what Jesus is with us okay? Don't play play.. Learned to be calm and chill and knowing that my God is my Big Big Daddy and no worries. I never knew that I actually inspired others. I always thought I just do what God has placed in my heart, sometimes fall here and there, get wounded, repaired, healed and stand up again, continue run this journey. This few days I've told that I actually inspired someone. I was like wow...okay... I never thought of that actually... All glories to my Daddy!=) Believing that Jesus who lives in me will continue mould me and help me through!=)

May Philippians 1:6 always be the reminder to everyone of us!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!=)

Learned

2010-12-27T03:33:00.003+08:00

Christmas just passed! A season where I felt so joyful! It's all about my Jesus' Birthday okay? You can't see Jesus doesn't mean He is not here. Just like you can't see air, doesn't mean it is not here. If not you will just died. God has been amazingly, merciful and graceful to me. And I thank God for it. Few days back I was reading my dear's in Malacca's blog.

She posted this :

Anything for you my love, Qing Ling. That's what friends are for, no? And i'm so grateful that i've met you in this life journey. Through the ups and the downs that we've been through. Every tear, every laughter definitely have brought us closer. Who would have thought that we would take the same step if its either one of us? I guess for now, we shall move on ahead together. Waiting for God's best. =)

Yeah, I've moved on for what God has for me. Through this incident, I see unconditional love. God is just amazingly just the way He is.

Kathleen, my dear, Happy 3 years Friendship! 3 years it sounds short, but God has brought us so close together. Though far apart, somehow the friendship maintain and better. Remember of those ups and downs, tears and joy, indeed our friendship didn't tear apart by the downs and tears but draw closer through God.

This year, it has been a super fast year for me. Been travelling a lots this year to Ipoh and KL. I learned to thank God for every 6 months break I have. After SPM and STPM, the supper long break. I never regret choosing not to rush into Colleges or Work but earn abit pocket money at the same time can recharge myself, build my foundation in Christ, learn more about Him, spend more time with Him, serving Him in church and all. In this two breaks, it is a time God who put passion, fire, recharge me. And I bear fruits for Him and I know there are still lot more training and moulding for me. I happy for it! Because Father always discipline His kids because He loves us. So HE SUPER DUPER LOVES ME!=D

Missing My Love Ones

2010-12-11T02:03:00.002+08:00

My love from Malacca was back for the week!=) So happy! A great friend of mine with exact 3 years friendship. God has been amazingly dwelling in our friendship! We went for Tong Sui and a day to spend together! Love that! 10 years down the road, we don't know what we will be but we will know that this friendship stays! Thank You LORD for my best friend who I can share our stories!=)

Delight

2010-11-10T22:48:00.003+08:00

Last night, He reminds me again that He is so delight in me.. His heart is so strong for me..

Pr. Colin asked me 'what have you done that makes His heart so strong for you?'

While God still using him to speak to me..

In my heart said this ' I did nothing'

Isin't great that a Father tell His daughter that He is delight in her? Please with her? Delight with everything that she has done?

I am so happy that the words has spoken in my life is not about ministry or what..

But is You are my precious daughter, see yourself at the right way, I am well pleased with you even when you do nothing..

"The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Zephaniah 3:17

Not By My Own

2010-10-30T01:10:00.003+08:00

LORD! I can't do it by myself! I gonna explode myself! Definitely not myself! I need You to do it and move! I surrender to you all LORD JESUS! How to love unlovable ones? How did You do that Father to me who are sometimes so unlovable? I know one thing I can do is just pray with a child like faith..Though my faith may be small, but how small is my faith still is a faith!

Ferris Wheel

2010-10-19T15:07:00.002+08:00

Life is like Ferris Wheel..

Some days..we are up high..

Some days we are low..

We feels like hiding ourselves inside the water and stop breathing..

Just to away from everything...

The end of the day,

is how we actually build our patient,

do not overreact,

and made a wise decision..

Trial of Life

2010-09-24T02:13:00.004+08:00

In LIFE, we have trials and tribulations. It's a training ground. When we are not troubled, we always know this so called 'theory' but when we are in, we don't see it and think it is a training ground. Look at the mountains, it is nice but it is not easy to climb from one mountain top to the other.

It take tears, sweat, courageous to go through all this. It take friendship to help each other in this journey.

The mountains look so high and impossible, the valley look so deep and scary when we are REALLY facing it. After observing, I realize there are few types of reaction that we the human reacted when we facing all this mountains and valleys.

First type, 'oh no I'm gonna DIE!'. (It sounds like 'it so fluffy I'm gonna die!)

Second type, 'it must be the DEVIL!'.

Third type, 'this is LIFE'.

Fourth type, 'that must be GOD want to train me to be a better person'

The end of the day, it is our choice to view it. There are times I am super negative as my family quite negative but it is not an excuses for me to be negative. I should be the good influence to them not the bad influenced by them. In life we face Family issue, Relationship issue, Work place issue, Friends issue, Financial issue, Personal issue and the list goes on. In this world, there is NO ANY PLACES that you can avoid problems even you go to the end the earth. What's matter is how we view it. I am still learning to walk and learn this.

And one day I able to stand the mountain top and said 'I've conquer this mountain, let's go the the next mountain and conquer it.'

Different Special Moment

2010-09-16T22:42:00.004+08:00

In life, we have different special moment. In my life I have a lots of special moment!Because I have wonderful friends!

Last Thursday thank God finally a few of us can chill for dinner+update in lives..

Doggy in my life..First dog in my life..Initially can't get use to it..Don't like it at all..Now I like her!=)

Sense of suppressing is in the midst but thank God for prayer and healing take place!=)

Hope to have more time to update..=)

KL Trip - Bloom Conference!

2010-08-18T14:54:00.005+08:00

Thank God for His faithfulness. Before planning for this trip, I actually kind of hesitate because I'm busy with my assignment that is due on that week, 4 of my CG members' baptism. Thank God I managed to pass up my assignment on time. First time doing some stuff alone. Mum went down with me because she wants to visit my uncles and aunties. Bloom conference indeed open up my eyes and hearts. So blessed by Acts Family. Can you imagine you are surrounded with 400 over ladies?Wohoo...This year theme -Complete in Him. I believe that God want me fully complete in Him. Believe that not coincident that I attend this year conference. More on private stuff, so can't really share. =) But I see how they run and organise Bloom! Rocks! Met up with my SOM friends as well. Hope to meet those uncles and aunties soon. Met up with Pr Kelly for dinner as well. She really macam my mummy! HAHA! Visited my little cutie cousin sister that from a super tiny thin small baby and become now like super huge fat girl. *GONE CASE* Her mum keep feeding her milk, of course la! She so cute and laugh when you say 'An gu gu' to her...Baby...It was a fruitful trip, sit KTM alone, KL bus alone..Here's the pic :

KTM-ing alone..From Petalling..First time sitting in the cubicle that is only for ladies

Subang jaya KTM! So miss it! Inside the bus, going to Sunway Pyramid =)

Abel and Jessica! Sorry Tabitha is besides me =) My SOM-ates

Inside Kai Ling's car! She pick me up from Sunway..Look at this spider?Octopus? Have no idea..

Having the best bubble tea in Subang Jaya!=)

Bloom! 420 ladies in the sanctuary! First night spoke by Pr Sandra! So blessed!

Bloom 2010! Complete in Him!

The food the Acts Men served! It's really nice! =)

Some pasta

This drink really unique..Sour,sweet and some herbs...

LOOK AT THE HAND!!!! How many layers?!

Jiang jiang jiang! My cousin sister who only 3 months oldddddddddddddddddd =P

Her name is Sarah

Breakfast on the last day!

My CG members' baptism (can't attend) =( The left one don't know who is that..

From left -Yvonne, Janice, Joseph, Joel

Love you all! May you have a great journey in Christ as you've step the first step of obedient..

2010-07-31T14:17:00.002+08:00

Papa and Mei Mei

Sombongnya itu Mei Mei

Haha!Today let's talk about her!She is such adorable girl!She is now 1 years and 8 months old!Love her so much though quite naughty sometimes.I get to know her since the day she not yet in Su Mei mama's womb,till she is born,now growing up and learning to talk!When first come back from KL,saw her like a big girl already!Last night the launch of 40 days prayer and fasting,I carried her in front to praise and worship.She raise up her hand as she see a lot of people raise their hands up.She clap hand when other claps.Haha.She is getting heavier and heavier.I carry till hand no strength and pain.Suddenly I felt she is swinging,nearly shock me out for her sudden swing.What does that swing mean?Sleepy!HAHA...I saw her keep blink her eyes.I don't know I should laugh or cry.LOL..Then I move her up again on my shoulder as she is getting lower and lower as I don't have the strength.Then she lie on my shoulder,looking around then eyes closing..It's second time she lying on my shoulder.First time is when I babysit her in church during Sunday service.She is just so cute!Love her sooooooooooooo much!

CIA-Cleaning In Action

2010-07-29T00:41:00.007+08:00

Yeap,Yesterday I done CIA=Cleaning In Action to my room. After came back to Penang from KL,I clean a few times but it's more like sweeping, mopping only. This time is really like Gotong-royong. I've thrown 3 packs of rubbish (You can imagine how many unwanted stuff) =P .Broke my cupboard's glass. Step on a super small piece of glass and red in colour. Mop broke when I was mopping.Haha!Bad Quality.Mum asked 'Why la you broke this and that!' Some asked 'Are you sure you are cleaning?Or renovating?' LOL.... Overall,I use 5 hours to clean,arrange and retransform every area and corner of my room as well as some DIY. Here you goes :

Wonderful and nice room!=) That's why I sleep a lot!

Broke a glass but for the first time so little stuff!=)

DIY-to cover my laptop

My New Printer!=)

Realize I got a lots of belts!

Clean cupboard

THANK GOD FOR SUCH A NICE ROOM! :)

The New Phase

2010-07-21T20:50:00.004+08:00

The new phase of my life has already started.For God,is a next phase for me.For me,is a new phase.I've started College.I've chosen Communication Course.If you ever ask me what will I be next time.Seriously I don't know.I'm in fear right now but really pray that the peace will come soon.Some people said it's not easy to get work in Malaysia for this course.Then?I've no idea.Just study and take the degree first.Where am I studying?Here you goes:

Keep thinking and thinking.The end I still don't have the exact answer.The lecturers that I have quite good and nice.Oh ya,for your information most of the subject I studying will be same class with Mr Samuel Ong

very yeng right?curi from FB..Haha!

Anyway,I think everything will be interesting.Most of them quite shock because I turned from a science stream to Mass Comm...Wow..I actually can continue my science subject.I had Bplus for Biology.I really got thought of taking some course like Biomedic.The end,mass comm.What really meant for me?I've no idea.I know God want me to stay in Penang for study.But I've not yet find out the main purpose on certain stuff.Well,see how it goes and believe as time pass,I will grow in spiritually as well as maturity.=)

Pretty Long

2010-06-22T11:19:00.002+08:00

It has been 1 month I'm back here to the place where I belong.It also has been 1 month plus I didn't post anything.Let's see what's interesting stuff that has happened in my life.

Firstly,currently I'm jobless and study-less because I'm waiting for my appealing USM results that will be out 2 weeks time.Though a lots of people said CGPA need to be 3.00 only can enter into USM.Somehow I just has the peace and cool to it.Just wait for the results to be out.At the same time I didn't get into any university in UPU.It's actually kind of surprisingly.One of my friend checked for me and he so afraid of telling me.So,he decided to drop a message in my msn.He said I've failed to get into any university and asked me to stay strong.While I'm reading that message,I actually laughing.Because I don't even feels a single sadness or disappointment.Why do I say so?Because I know God has a better plan for me.I know God want me to stay in Penang to pursue my study.The results of UPU it totally not bringing any affect to me.

Secondly,currently helping out in church while I've nothing to do at home.Actually I pretty enjoy it.=) It has been great for the pass few weeks after we had our Youth Leaders Meeting.All Youth Leaders caught the passion on want to bring Youth Ministry to next level which is higher.We have to give our best because God had given us His best to us.I'm actually very excited.After 3 months attending in Acts Church,I really see how Acts family giving their best to Jesus.They just so passionate and giving everything in every area that they able to give.Indeed,I'm really blessed by them for the past 3 months.

Thirdly, I went to Re:Union Conference last 2 weeks ago.It's great to be back to Acts Church and went back to Tung Ling Seminary!I'm kind of miss Subang actually.At least I know some roads there already!=) 3 months indeed pass very fast.During conference,we the Penang team really blessed by Acts Family.Of course God has spoken into individual's of our lives that went.

I still continue go on and on till no end.I think it will be up to here until I able to get some inspiration.=)

As I waiting patiently to God,I shall see the glory of God!=)

Father's Love Letter

2010-05-10T23:07:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKmdIdQg3Ks

Clip that compiled different verses and it became like our Father wrote a love letter for us.It's Father's Love Letter.It's just amazing and awesome.For more information on the making of this clip,do check out

www.fathersloveletter.com

Simple clip yet it can bring a huge impact in lives.It spoke to me and my tears flow down.How can we ignore this love?How can we say we are His children yet didn't spend time with Him and read His Love Letter(the Bible) that given to us?

Make a change of your life.Is your decision.

2 more weeks

2010-05-08T19:41:00.003+08:00

2 more weeks!Wheeee..I cannot believe that I've been here for 2 months plus.Today whole day I just so called rot at home.Not really rot actually.I woke up at 11 plus.Actually I woke up at 8 plus and think is there any class today?Haha.Then slept again.Uncle Charan and Uncle Samuel drove me to a mamak stall called Anjung Merah for lunch.There were a lots of people.I back home then do some reading and read the book of Romans.It's a pretty interesting and awesome book because it spoke to me and it's God's word what of course 'holiao' lar.Hehe!Then,fall asleep again after reading.I woke up at 6 plus and bath.I start cooking for my dinner.I bought a tin of curry chicken and a pack of long beans.So I cook curry chicken,long beans with some garlics,and an egg!Egg is my favourite.Hehe!Simple yet nice ok!Who say have to eat luxury food?When I saw a clip on what had happen to some of the people in India.My tears flow down.I feels guilty.I feels I'm wrong.I was reminded again that I'M BLESSED 1000000 folds compare to the people in India so much.Some of them were ignore or no home when they have some physically disease or mental disease.The family will just leave them at roadside or alone.Their legs or some area will have worms.It's thousands of worms ok.I am blessed with so many by my parents.Yes,sometimes they may nag you,they scold you,they angry at you.But think about this,would you rather them to nag you or would rather to let them leave you alone when you have some kind of sickness?or even now you may think I would just rather them to leave me alone.Ya right,when you are that situation of those people in India,you will not think of that at all.Because we never been that situation,we will always say that.The video really move my heart.When our laptop and computer crash,we will like so angry and pekcek.We are just so bonded by all these materials.In God's eyes,HE wants us to change.HE wants us to change into the likeness of Christ.We can say we want to change the world and bla but if we don't change in the circle of us such as family,attitude,mindset,how are we able to change the world for God?A plane will have a smooth get off when there are a strong foundation of road.We are like the plane,we want to fly high then we've to have a strong foundation in our family.Because we put God first and our family second.That's why family is important.Tomorrow is Mother's Day,do something ok?Everyday should be Mother's Day and Father's Day.Not once in a year k?Love ya!Gonna do some reading again.See ya!

3&1/2 Hour Before

2010-04-28T21:11:00.002+08:00

3 and a half hour before my 20 birthday.Been living in the world for 20 years already.Looking back to the past,before I was Christian and after I became a Christian.I thank God for the things that I gone through.Whether is good or bad but I still praise Him.From study issues to family issues,personal issues to relationship issues and etc etc of things that I gone through.I praise Him for what He've done in my life.I thank God for the molding part in my life.It makes me stronger,tougher,different.I will not said I am fully matured because life is a journey of learning.It never ends till the day I go into Heaven.I thank God for His grace and kindness.So that I will have the second chance to live once again.I thank God that I have testimony to testify Him for what He have done.Well,twenty is no more teen teen.No more like eighteen or nineteen.No more this so called 'Teen' thingy in my age.Our age can increase but our maturity doesn't mean will follow growing as well.I prayed that my maturity will grow.I don't want be all the time like a baby or children.20,got a lots of decision have to made.Got a lots of things I've to think of.I can't believe I'm going to be 20 because 20 is just so not suit me ok!Haha.Because everyone that met me said I look like 18.Heeeeeeeeeeeeee.Anyway,my 20 gonna be a great age for me!I should enjoy being 20!Because it's what God give me.For those who being 20,please wake up!Haha!You've the opportunity to be 20 should rejoice because not everyone have the chance to live till 20 years old ok?=) TWENTY all the best to MISS MOY!=)

One More Month

2010-04-25T22:33:00.001+08:00

One more month to go and I will be back to Penang!I am graduating on 21st May.I went back on Friday then back home just now 4am in the morning(Sunday).The time really jam pack.Totally no time talk to my parents,eat home cook food.I just super tired on Saturday till very awake.On Friday,we (my 2 classmates) touch down Penang at 8.10pm.I was so angry with Fireflyz.They delayed our flight for 1 hour!My goodness.By the time I reach church is like 8.40pm.This is my first time and have such bad impression on it.Anyway,Revolution Gathering was good.Listening different testimony from the various students.I am so happy to see all the young people!We went supper till around 12am.Slept at 2am.Saturday we woke up at 7.30am.We went for breakfast.Brought 2 of my friends which are from KB and KK to try out the Dim Sum.After that we rush to RGBC for Revo Academy and followed by lunch together with the teams and some pastors.Around 1plus,I drove and drop Dom in Vistana and my 2 friends in QB to let them shop shop.I rush to pick up my mum and grandma then use my GPS to Politeknik Permatang Pauh to sit for some USM Inventory Test.Super lame questions anyway.310 questions in one hour.After that pick my friends up and went to bath and rush to Vistana.Phew..Revo Party jam bang and 700 young people came,49 salvations.The whole Heaven rejoice!Praise the Lord.I prayed that those new sheeps will have a proper shepherding by the shepherds.We went back around 12am and reach Subang around 4am.Really tiring.I'm really miss Penang.And it's super lost there!Because my bro's hair very long and can drive already.Seeing the EPCC youth,hugs all of them!I really miss them!Love all of you!One more month and I'll be back!!Hurray!=)

First time again

2010-04-19T23:22:00.007+08:00

Yes,something first time took place in my life.15th April is the day where I was serving in devotional lead.Easy?No ok.Haha.Why do I say so?Devotional lead is you lead with your own sermon.No one will give you any material.You have to come out something from the Bible.It's good experience actually.God is just so graceful towards me.And I thank Him for that.A week before 15th April,I am still actually very indecisive on what to share.Tongue?Wisdom?Self-Control?With it you have to come out a Title,text,3 points with illustrations.When Thursday,exactly 1 week before,our lecture taught on Spiritual Bondages.There are one session which we have to flip through different verses.And this verse that quite impact to me few months ago and I forgotten.I saw it and I think it can be used for my devotional!So,during the class the thoughts,ideas,illustrations,3points,title just came.I was telling God 'God,very wrong timing leh.I need to focus in the class leh.' I share it to one of my housemate's sister.She ask me to quickly write down.I didn't actually.Because it just in my mind.One thing that I realize,if God given those points,titles or anything in your heart or mind,it will never leave you.I actually wrote down everything the next day.I thank God for Him!If not I couldn't make it!Initially why I was indecisive is because I scared not good enough,I scared it will be too pain for others or too hard.Just keep thinking of others but never ask from God what He wants me to share actually.One of my housemate's aunty actually rebuke me and corrected my mindset.She saw what I worry actually.God even use Pastor Sam's sermon speak to me as well when I was listening to online on '3 Doors How To Not To Build A Nice Church'.Indirectly,it really spoke to me.So,I just go with it.Before the day 15th April at night,a lots of things in my mind.I very worry,scared yet relax.I went out from my house and sit at the park.Sang a song,tears flow down.I realized that I really need more than 100% of God to do that.I don't have the courage.I am nothing without Him.I talk to God.And the peace just came.So,I went in and call off for that night.

JIANG JIANG JIANG.Morning came!After the worship,I just walk in front and share everything that I have prepared.I just move by the Holy Spirit.Honestly,I can't believe I made it through!Because is Immanuel!God is with us!HE is with me!I don't know I can just stand in front of the pulpit and bla bla bla.It's really 100% of God.All Glory to Him.Thank God the devo impart someone's life.Here's the before nota-nota.Hope you enjoy it.Love to all of you!Gonna rest!Night!

Galatian 6:10

2010-04-12T22:42:00.002+08:00

Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers. (Galatian 6:10)

Something to share to all of you.It is so true that people said some Christians are really so hypocrites.It's super true.People said 'Some Non-Christians are really better than Christians.'

It's so sad to hear this right?But indeed this exist in this world.I feel sad for God.One phrase that just came to my mind is 'Before you want to make a different in the world or to the non-believer,make a different start with people around you!Your brothers and sisters!!'

Come on man!We are brothers and sisters together,can you believe people gossips around?Ouch..Pain right?But tell me,if you don't know how to forgive or love your brothers and sisters in Christ,how will you know to forgive or love those who are lost?It's just like the concept on if we don't know how to love God,then how are we gonna love the others around us?

We are asked to care for the family of believers as well.Don't neglect it.Last few weeks ago,my lecture ask us one question that is 'Do God measure our commitment by seeing how early we go church,every events we sure the early birds,every events sure there?' Do God measure us like that?Do God's love so shallow?If NO,why we measure others like that?(We don't?Think seriously and see)

After coming here,I really think and think,talk to God about it.Asking Him why this,why that.Though I didn't receive the answer.But somehow I know HE still in control.

We need to use our brain to think!A lot of time we don't think!That's the thing!So,think!=)

Bless all of you!=)

Different People

2010-04-06T21:42:00.005+08:00

In this world,all of us are different compare to others.You will never be like me,and I never be like you.I thank God for placing me in EPCC for the for the past 3 years plus since the days I accepted Christ and before that.For all the molding part,the trainings,the so called 'harshy' part,indeed have grown me.Of course,God is the main contributor!He gave me a lots of things to face.A lots of trials and tribulations.Honestly,some I failed and some I passed.After 1 month of here,I saw how others' action,attitude,passion,and etc of areas.I thank God I am consider the so called not so the childish one though I am quite young(all the time).Anyway,tomorrow I am having exam!Just finish studying.The subject is getting harder and harder.Things that have to memorize also getting harder and harder and also much much more.Indeed I need God's strength.Here are some of the photos that are different from FB =) Enjoy my friends!Ohya,15th April I am leading on devotional which means have to prepare sermon!15min!Do keep me in prayer ya!For wisdom!=)

He got a pretty interesting F6 life

He is like my younger brother

Went to one of the Tepanyaki in Sungei Wang.RM5 for taugeh!

Posing hehe

My roommate and I again!

The March

2010-04-02T14:51:00.002+08:00

The month of March.I've been away from my family 1 month already.Time really fly.I slowly get used to here but prefer Penang.Throughout the 1 month I learn a lots of things and also see a lots of things.I've realize so much things.It has been a fruitful moment here.The Father Heart Of God lessons really awesome.Though there are not much teaching but more personal encounter with God and think a lots.I thought I really know God but actually realize no.A question hit me.'Do you see God as loving Father?' When see the question,is very easy to say yes very fast.But after processing in mind,No actually.I just see God as God.That's it.Two more months to go and I still feels I want more.Ohya,I learned Song Of Solomon.Really deep,don't look at the outward only k?It's talk about the bride and Christ.So yeap.For more photos of me in KL?Do check it out in my FB!=)

1 Month

2010-03-27T00:22:00.004+08:00

Astaga,one month didn't update my blog already.Time fly.I think I will miss here when I am back to Penang.Slowly get to know more about those young people here.My laptop passed away few weeks ago.Going to receive my new laptop soon.Now,very no mood honestly,someone just killed it.May be he is right,may be he is wrong.Sometime I really very confusing.So yeah,for the pass 1 month here is good but of course there are ups and also downs.Sometimes,I really don't understand.A lots of things really don't understand.Some people might seem to be so different.What I mean in a different different.Haha.I know you are confusing now!!I think I just update nonsense for now.Haha.I will update more and also photos when I got my laptop.Anyway,I'm doing awesome here,will be back to Penang very very soon.Love!

Oh No

2010-02-28T22:13:00.003+08:00

Got to online again!!I got no time to get a Digi Broadband.May be tomorrow I think.I'm just sooooooooooooooo don't like KL feeling.Want to go one place also like super far and if done a wrong turn,then you have to go till very far only can get U-turn.Pragas and I like so 'mang zhang' and no mood.Hmm....How?We just now have our dinner in McD,thought can use the Wifi there but who knows it's keep cannot enter.So,we change to Old Town.Both like so no life at all.How am I gonna live here man.And the housemates are mostly uncle and aunties.Some of them like weird weird and quite negative kind.We went to Acts church 10th anniversary today.It was super good after all the no mood.The host there is super good.Feels very blessed by their warm welcome.I think I at least met more than 10 people.Ok,lazy to talk more and now will post you my room photos!Let's see:

This is my new house address =)

That's what we do on the first day before breakfast because nothing to do.(can you believe it?Pragas is so free!!Normally he is just so busy!!)

This is my room!

This is my new bed for 3 months!

And I miss my CG member!=(

I am homesick ok!Can u imagine!Yesterday I didn't take lunch but take a bowl of mee for breakfast.Then we went to Ikea for dinner.I got no appetite,so take German 5 meatballs and french fries and salad!Can YOU IMAGINE!MISS QING LING OK!Home sick!I miss my family,room,bed,youths,kopitiam,anyone and everything!I cannot live in KL for work man!I can 'dong cheng'.Today also got not much appetite.I didn't take breakfast,lunch in Acts church but the lunch I just take a bit only.Then dinner in McD only.SEE!!MISS QING LING ALSO WILL LIKE THAT!Can't imagine leh.Ok,it's done.Gonna back soon!Love!=|

Finally and Finally,Still Finally

2010-02-27T14:06:00.002+08:00

Oh yes!Finally I able to access internet.Because currently my house don't have internet!No life.Now I can feel how people cannot live through internet and how desperate is it.But that shouldn't be ok!LOL.Anyway,my room is okay.Is nearby the kitchen and toilet.I think it's a maid room.It quite ok not that bad.Check in yesterday,clean up my room.I will post the photo soon due to I forget bring my USB cable.Currently is with Pragas and his God sister.Last night I went out with Pragas and his 15 old friends for dinner in some seafood restraunt.It's nice,food overflow and the price is like RM33 per person.Initially I'm sooooooooooooooooooo lost ok?Because I don't know what are they talking about those 'old days'.After the dinner,the night is still young,we went to some chilling place to chill.It suppose to able for us to talk,who knows there is this guy perform singing that place.Those songs that he sang are all Pragas and his old friends 'those old days' song.The only song that I know is 'It's my life' out of 20 songs.Haha!Monday I'm gonna start school.Huhu.Back to school.Ohya,just now we went to somewhere nearby Acts Church office for breakfast then we walk around.Currently I'm in Sunway Pyramid Starbucks.I'm quite sleepy actually.I lazy to come out.I wish to sleep all day long but you know I'm with a person that is active,go here and there.I shall post another post when I able to access internet again.Hehe =)

The Day That Jesus Had Made

2010-02-26T01:57:00.002+08:00

6 more hours and I will be leaving to KL for 3 months.Though just 3 months but like super long.I know that it gonna be fast actually.But you know the feeling..Can you feel me?Hehe.I just done my hair treatment myself.Yes,now is like 2am already!So that my hair not so dry.3 months is like not really long not really short.Things that needed to bring is like quite number of it.I'm gonna miss my home cook food and family.I'm gonna miss the SNL youths,Kopitiam family every Sunday,my beloved friends!3 months will be back.The day that Lord had made and my dream is coming true.Oh ya,I got my STPM result.It didn't as bad as I expected but it also didn't as good as I deserved because I know I didn't prepared well and didn't do well.So not much of high expectation compare to my SPM.I'm not really hide what I get but it don't really proud as well,ya I know it's confusing.Nowadays,I'm just feeling confused.No any As for my results though I expect my Biology will get A,who knows it's only B+,little bit only and I can get a A for it.Because I put full force on it and neglected my other subjects,end up just you know.Donkey for my Math as I expected because when I do time,I'm lost.The questions are pretty hard and somemore didn't prepare well,so dead.C for my Chemistry,once I was in love with Chemistry during F4 and F5.But when come to F6,the Chemistry world totally changed my view of it.So,I become quite anti it.I try my best to study it but still.I don't deserved a C actually.I suppose to get D or F for my Chemistry but God make a miracle and give me a C.Because when I do my Chemistry,especially Objective part,I only know 1 Question that I answered correctly,the rest I have no idea,just you know feel the 'feeling'.For my PA paper I got a B.Better that I expected because when my usual exams,my PA graph paper never ever once done finish.But STPM I managed to finish it but end up I realized that I calculated the percentage wrong.Somemore my essay,I don't really done well on it because of BM language.I'm not pro on it at all.And I got a B.My Chemistry and PA is saved by grace though is not an A.Still give thanks to God.Oh ya,somemore before my Chemistry Objective paper,I went to Prophetic Conference.It always happen to me when before exams,I go to serve or somewhere related to Jesus,then my result will not be as bad as I think.God is still good,it's just I'm not good because I didn't prepared well.No point regret now,no point mourn now.What I'm headaching now is what course to choose!This is it!I shall post the next post when I'm in KL.Love all and take care!

24 Hours

2010-02-24T16:39:00.003+08:00

What is future?I can't see because I don't know.Recently I'm busying apply some scholarship stuff and application.I'm lost actually.I don't know what to choose.Some say this some say that.Some say Biomedic can't find good job.Some say can.Some say at least need 3.5 CGPA above into Local U.So,local U or private U.Headache and headache.Less than 24 hours and I shall declare what may reveal.Results tomorrow 12pm.I don't know how man!Still have to face the truth.Less than 48 hours and I will be in KL.Don't like to be grown up because a lots decision you've to make by your ownself.No one can help you except advice.Sometimes I wish not to use my brain.Yes,my brain.Talking nonsense,so ya we will see how tomorrow.

Confusing

2010-02-22T23:37:00.002+08:00

Confusing feeling!Feels worry,sad,fears yet happy and excited.What kind of feeling is that?For the first time!Because everything nearly fall at the same time.2 more days to results and 3 more days to KL.I know I've done bad in my STPM compare to my SPM.Nothing much can help but I just don't want to fail!Please!What worry me the most is my Chemistry and Math.It totally die off on that day itself!Regrets also no use right?I just want to know the results!

Pili Pala Chaka Pong Ping Piang!

2010-02-14T00:44:00.003+08:00

Pili Pala Chaka Pong Ping Piang!Yes!It's Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines!Let's see,what do we have for Reunion Dinner.Huge Chicken,fish,vegetable,soup and huge mushroom!We somemore have dessert.Hoho.Super full.But I felt so different this year because aunties and uncles didn't come back.So,it's just my immediate family,my elder's bro's two friends and my youth director Pragas.Just so sad lar!!This year CNY weather is supreme hot!Hotter than usual!Take a nap also will sweat.Really sweat case for the weather.Valentines Day on 14th,nothing much.It's just another day for me to sleep,rest and take angpow.I'm done with my packing and next Friday will be leaving.Time flies man.I cannot believe it.I got a saman as well on Monday.So ya!Sad ok!Waves been hitting me till I think I'm just numb....

2 Weeks and 2 Days

2010-02-11T00:22:00.005+08:00

Left 2 more weeks and 2 days and I will be leaving to KL.Few days ago,I received an email from Tung Ling regarding things to bring and attire for class.I can wear t-shirt and jeans for class!Oh ya,we will have a graduation service on 21st May 7.45pm.Come if you can make it.Hehe.I know it's far!So,it's ok!Spiritually,emotionally,mentally and physically prepared?Erm..physically I'm kind of not.Because I don't even start to pack and buy those things that I need when I stay there for 3 months.What I can say is just I'm excited yet kind of sad.Yes,it's just confusing.I will be celebrating my 20th birthday my own as well.So sad right?All my friends just not here with me!=( Hopefully I prayed there will be young people like me will study the same course because normally more uncles and aunties.Well,I think I can connect with them and learn from them.It's pros and cons.May it be balance of different age.

Today also is my last day of work.I still don't have enough money for Bible study actually.Don't know how.The faith that I have for God to provide is kind of going down to the drain but today I read a book named 4Dimension Pr.Paul in Korea Church.It's kind of encouraging and learn a lots from it.So,yeah.Even not enough money I will still go because my mum said she will borrow me first then when I'm back I have to pay her back when I work again.I know it will kind of different for me and it will change something in my life through this thing by God.Last day of work,I will miss my colleague Chia Yee!She is pretty nice person.Somehow we just can connect.May be because we are from Chinese school as well so communication is not the problem for us.We lunch together,we share share,we talk talk.May God convicts her heart and may her give her soul back to Jesus!Amen.I think that's all.

Chinese New Year is drawing near.This year is quite different because I only got 2 new clothes and 2 new short pants and new shoes as well.I somehow just don't have the feeling you know?The mood for it.Each year as grow older,I feels that I'm just getting lesser mood for CNY.I think it's because we no longer like young time gather gather play fire works.No more ok!Nowadays during reunion lunch(normally we do it lunch because it's easier) on the reunion day for Chinese.At night we will just go movie!Yes!Movie!No more at home play fireworks and gamble.Haha.Yes,before I became a Christian,every CNY we will gamble!My uncle or my elder bro will lead haha!I'm kind of proud of myself not to touch it anymore.=) As years goes on,the traditional of CNY is going down to the drain as well.

By the way,I just don't like CNY songs.I feels very irritating and it's just not nice at all.Last Sunday we have our CNY open house!It's quite successful.I served in media team.I got the chance to serve ok!That's happy!It's very good memory for me.Why?Because 2 years ago the CNY Open House,I serve as the assistant main camera.I don't have much chance to serve that time because I never do camera before.That's my first time learning and Wenby teach me.After 2 years,again I'm serving.I initially supposingly serve as a director for the 2 cameras.But Ding fall sick and she didn't come.So I have to replace her role to coordinate everything and oversee everything.Tze Han(our HOM) done a great job!Great job to him even though it's first time for him to run such big event but he manage it well.Though during set up time it's quite hectic.We set up from 2pm till 7pm then everything started.Thank God no rain!Perfect weather!I'm kind of very erm..hectic also because around 6.30pm still no one come and explain the whole thing for me.So,I just have to find my way out to avoid the mistakes and errors.Manage to prepare everything before the YBs come.Everything started at 7.20pm and it went on successfully.Though got 2-3 parts we don't catch it but thank God I'm not that dungu till blur blur..so I just ask them to click and things reveal on screen.Haha!I got to use walkie-talkie!Yes!Not those that very noisy but consider good already.Bro Kig Ling was serving as sound man.We both partnering in serving really very funny because both of us just LONG BREATH!Haha..Keep repeating saying same things to avoid errors.I'm kind of worry Siow Ling will be pressured by me.But thank God still ok.She serve in projection lady.I think she is good.Quite listen to the instruction clearly.Can be trained!I believed!I love the best part in the whole thing as in the event is when Florence give Q to play background sounds when the two Emcees said GONG XI FA CHAI,SHEN TI JIAN KANG and WAN SHI RU YI.When the about to say finish the RU YI,we play the background music.Wow,it's just so nice!For the whole process,though the set up is quite messy at first but manage well the end then I love the packing up time!We are just so co-operate as one team.Got Meng Seong,Michelle,Tze Han,Eugene,Samuel Tan,Siow Ling,Daniel Mak,Edmund and I.I heard from someone that we pack super the fast.He suggest us to shoot from 1st floor of the building then edit then we will know how fast we pack everything up.He said when he just turn to another side,everything just gone!Haha!That's team up spirit!Give our best and excellent.At the end,everything is not about us but Jesus alone.HE is the only reason!

Philippians 3:13 Brothers,I do not conside myself yet to have taken hold of it.But one thing I do:Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.

Yeap,forgetting what is behind is not about those sad things only but those things that you feel proud as well.Before the whole event,when around 6.45pm,honestly I'm really scared.Fear of mistakes.I ask God for wisdom even as I coordinate,I need His strength.I cannot do all this things without Him.So yes,is Him not me.Good experience.

That's all for now!=)

A Place

2010-02-02T20:44:00.002+08:00

A place to breathe.Same things over and over again.Am I the only one living here?A driver?Get use of un-fair-ness.Whatelse to say?Don't know.23 more days and I will be leaving here.Financial is an issue,I pray hard to want God provide me.Nothing else I can do,just believe.A lots of decision have to make,a lots of thinking have to think.I need God's wisdom.Nothing much I can say.I will not back for 3 months.Excited initially but kind of killed joy in the midst.What to do?Sometimes how ugly is human nature till I'm just speechless.It's super hard for us to living blameless.Too much have seen,yet too little.Too much have known,yet not much I have known.Gone through too much thing,yet too little.Learnt a lots,yet learn not too much.Sometimes world is just...too nonsense..Sometimes we just confuse regardless which religion in..Life are just complicated to the end of day..In the end,my God is quite complicated,that's why I cannot figure out what HE is thinking..This is it.

醒了

2010-01-26T23:10:00.002+08:00

好像终于醒了。刚刚挂了一通电话。我现在才知道原来你的眼睛有四处寻找，而不是我一个而已。觉得自己好笨，我应该很气你可是心里却还是有你。我自己却好气自己的没用。我勉强的逞强就快过了，因为我要走了。你也许将以前的前女友的怨恨报复在我身上。恭喜你，成功了。你也是第一个可以伤害我得那么撤底的。我不会怪你，我原谅你。我现在才知道你眼里容纳了别人。幸运的我没于你开始，因为我的线报告诉我，如果我们开始，我将会更受伤地走出来。她没和我说正体的故事，她知道全部的故事，我也没多问，因为我可以开始想象是什么样的故事。我现在不会再有任何的期望了。也不想再笨了，伤害得够多了，我这次真的被骗了。梦也该醒了。妈妈问我为何半夜会听到我哭，我该说什么呢？我只能说没有呀！骗了。

It Took The Lives Again

2010-01-20T21:43:00.002+08:00

Recently,the shocking news that breaks my heart is the Chung Ling Dragon Boat Tragedy.Though I study in Chung Ling for one and a half years but somehow I very own this school.This school is great,our principal trained quite a good bunch of people.The tragedy took 6 lives away.I couldn't believe it.Whether is a coincident,the undercurrent or the devil wanted to take young people lives away,it's already happened.May be few of them I crossed shoulder with them before in school.I went to the tragedy site on Monday.I'm able to go in through some connection.The rescue rangers still looking for two missing boys.In my heart I keep praying quickly find them because if not 7pm they gonna stop finding again.Of course in our heart we already know the lives have gone but just want to have a little of hope.I saw the parents,they broke down,how hopeless their face shown.When I was there,two boys' parents and families still waiting under the hot sun.Tears flow,especially as a dad is so hard because they have to become their wives strong tower,they cannot broke down.I was there about 2-3 hours,the hot sun is pretty hot and the rescue rangers still searching for it.I think they done their best.After that,I went to one of the student's wake-Brendon Yeoh.I think Pragas,Joshua and I are the first one who reach because the body found on Monday Morning and they have their wake service in Khoo Kongsi Cemetery in Farlim.Though I don't know him but my tears flow down.I couldn't take it.I saw him in the coffin.He sleep with peace but I don't know how about his spirit.God knows.I don't know why am I so dare to see him because when my grandma passed away,I don't dare to see my grandma last face,my parents asked me to see so have to,so I see with fears.I think because that time I'm not a Christian and I have a lots of fears.And now I'm saved by the grace of God,so I see him.Honestly,I couldn't recognize him when I see the photo.I think is because in the sea water too long.His mum stay close to the coffin and crying touching him on the glass.His mum look at me and asked me am I his friend with tears in mandarin.I say I'm a ex-Chung Ling student and Joshua friend.Her face shown so hopeless and sad.I lay my hand upon her,I don't know what to say and just said 'Aunty,you don't sad already' in mandarin.When I lay upon her when try to comfort her ,at the same time I prayed for her and her families.May them quickly come out from this wilderness and continue move on with their lives.After that,I saw his younger brother and sister came.His younger brother cried and taking his starbucks' tshirt(I think is his favourite clothes).I couldn't take it that time and tears flow down.Lives are so short,you never know when you friends will leave you.Though sometimes we said that but we never ever share about Jesus to them.Yes,we know that if they are not saved,they will go hell but still we didn't do much time.I think is time to wake up as well to all of us,whether you are a student,working adult or old man.May this tragedy wake everyones up and even me up.

She left again

2010-01-17T13:52:00.004+08:00

Duckie rice!

My lovely dovely Miss Loke!

Abit shy shy punya Kath

Miss Loke's foot with a lots of fishes

Kaki saya =)

Yes,is me!!!

This photo taken when on the way back,what a weird chicken,look like some sharkie that eat people

My poor little finger T.T

Last week I was off day for 2 days that is Monday and Wednesday.Have a good time spending with Veronica and Miss Melody in Queensbay Mall on Monday.I spent a lot on that day itself because I just left 40+ days here and have to buy some stuff before I leave to KL.Then Tuesday went to work as usual and I totally forgotten about Leaders' Meeting and thank God I remembered it around 8pm and I rush there.I thank God I didn't miss that session because it's awesome session.After that Aaron,Kath and I went for Midnight Duck Rice,super nice!But the amount just too small for me.So I took 2 plates and back home sleep.Wednesday,my lovely dovely dear finally give her whole day to me.Finally just me and her went out to round round.We went to Foot Spa in CTY.Mine one was free and hers was 50%.Because I got it during Graduation Dinner Lucky Draw.I wanted to go for that very long ago and finally I got it!It actually only for 30 min but we exceed that time because the workers there just don't want bother us.Haha!Basically we used 10 minutes to shout and try to put our leg.Yes,we shouted!Thank God no people there because it's a weekdays!No people like us so free.The fish got big like 5cm!Goodness!!!Honestly,I'm a person who scared of gerli on my leg somemore added with the suction of fishes!After 10 minutes we get use to it and enjoy it!Ya,it's fun and nice.After that we went Gurney shop shop because I want to get a purse but end up we bought a PADINI clothes.Same style but different colour because got discount.Hehe!Oh ya,CTY is around Prangin Mall there.Two of us totally have no idea about down town roads.So we just round and drive by faith!Haha!End up,we successfully reach those places!Haha!Ya,I drop her back home.Hug hug,no sob sob and she left =) At night,Mr.Samuel came to my hosue and teach me guitar.First time of my life,and my hand just pain like crazy!T.T The whole night I just learnt how to press G-Chord because it super hard to makesure every tone are right.So ya!!Thursday and Friday as usual went to work and party in the office my 18years old colleagues because just 2 of us in the office.Hehe.Have a lots of fun with her though.

Officially

2010-01-09T14:38:00.003+08:00

The thing that I'm looking forward to!Finally it arrived my house few days ago.As usual I went to the letter box to look for my letter and I received it!I was accepted to Tung Ling Seminary School already for my bible study or so called School Of Ministry.So ya,I left 548 more days here,don't sad.Hehe.It is only by God this only able to happen.You know why?Because I gone through my dad's level as well.Last time even I wanted to go Mission Trip to Sabah,fight like crazy and end up also cannot go.That time really sad till the max.This time I thought I will not get what I want again.Somemore go Bible Study,but end up he said 'ar..ok..go la..' I was like 'Hurray!!' May be you would like to ask why I want to go or what I want to learn from there.First of all,I wanted to equip myself since this is the right time and I'm so free.Why would I be keep working and earn money only..I wanted to learn more deeper of the word,so that when friend ask me I will not answer B when they ask me A.I want to give them the right and exact truth.This is my first time leave my house for so long.Wow..I can't imagine and can't believe that and it will come to past.Recently, a lots of things happening in Malaysia.What we can do is to pray and believe.God will send His guardian angel to protect us.HE will not see HIS sons and daughters harm by the evil.So ya,don't be discourage and love our enemy.A lots of things have to buy before I leave.Wohoo..

Qing Ling from Chung Ling is going to Tung Ling.Ya,heard that?I'm kind of related to Ling in my entire life.=)

Back To School

2010-01-04T01:58:00.002+08:00

Yes,few more hours the students are going back their respective schools and also for those F1 students going to step into their new schools as well.They will make new friends.Wow,time pass fast.Even right now I want go back to school also cannot anymore.No such thing as called Form 7.Honestly,I feels old when I see people going back to school and I can't go back to school for study.I miss those days which are so fun!School are awesome trust me.You will know it when you really think about it when you cannot go to school anymore.Those days are crazy!I miss F6 though STPM is tough but I thank God for a bunch of good and nice friends!Though I didn't go back to school for study but tomorrow I'm going back to work!I've been holidaying for 5 days so ya!Tomorrow going back to work as usual.For those who are going F1,one thing I prayed you will make good friends in your high school.A good friends can cheer you up and encourage you but a wicked friend will just pull you down and down.So ya!Choose the right friend ya!Give your best at this year!Do everything and every decision with Godly wisdom not earthly wisdom alright?Don't just get knowledge but wisdom through your study.Have a great day tomorrow and be bless!=)

2010

2010-01-01T02:51:00.003+08:00

The year has pass and the new year begin.2009 just pass like that!It's super fast compare to the previous year.I just can't believe it!Trust me!Fast till overwhelmed.2010,we had our watch night service youth zone in my house.It was just fully packed with loud and young people.Guess what?How do I count down for my 2010 to come?Before 2010 first few minutes,my contact lens ran into my left side eye.I couldn't take it out and I was so worry.And I heard 'HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!' Yes,so my contact lens was stuck since last year till just now 2010.What a different welcoming year,so it's gonna be different this year.What a year has pass,I thank God for His forgiveness and love that given to me.His faithfulness still remain for me.2009 been a year for molding,training,teaching,learning.I will say it's hard and pain.I thank God I go through it by His grace and strength.Honestly,I have no resolution for this year.In my heart,I'm very 2o1o gonna be a super uncertainties for me.It's related to where I study,what to study and etc of questions.The hurricane has passed.And I know that this year gonna be so much different in different way.I'm looking forward to it though it's a bit scary.Forgive me if I offended any of you in 2009 due to my words or actions.May us continue to run the race for Him.Have a great year ahead!=)

Grandma Birthday!

2009-12-28T23:52:00.004+08:00

Yes!Grandma birthday on the 29th but we celebrate on 26th.We have about 30 people like that.Grandma just like Lao Juak and a lots of people.Pragas,Aaron,Kathleen,Mikey and SK were there.I think now they know where did I inherit the loudness from.Haha!Because it's in the family gene!LOL!Because that night I myself also cannot endure the noisyness of my aunties and uncles.My grandma's sisters and brothers came as well but not all.It is because complicated politic families issues.LOL!Since I'm young.So,that's what I say 'The disadvantages of having so many siblings.' My aunt and uncle(my mum's bro) laugh like crazy when hear what I say.Partly is true but we can make the different isint?Oh ya,one funny thing during that night.80% of them are non-Christian but my grandma already become Christian,my mum asked Pragas to pray for my grandma.When we pray suppose to be quiet and silent moment but who knows our prayer is so loud!Because my aunties and uncles were talking.They don't know we actually going to pray.Haha!I was like *Faint* .That's so lame and funny.I met my grandma's sister's grandchild.I met her once but I very fast I have to leave already.She is so adorable!Trust me!So cute!I fall in love with her man!One funny incident that is I don't know she will be hyper if consume too much sugar.Our friend Pragas give her Secret Recipe cake non-stop.By the way,she is just two years old and 2 months.Her name is Paris Fong Yu Tian.So ya,I was asking Pragas not to give her anymore but he still give.After half an hour,weird things happen.That is she is hyper-ing!She keep jumping on the sofa bed and laugh while holding my hand.Whole night she actually stick with me!Haha!I carry her,talk to her.When I sit on the floor from the chair,she also follow me.Another funny incident that make the rest laugh is we were talking talking then laugh,she also laugh 'haha (then) shhh.......(with her finger on her lips)...' We were like WAHAHAHAHA!They said now they know why sometimes I laugh laugh laugh then serious.Haha!We end around 1 plus.It's super tiring,but what to do grandma birthday!One prayer she will stay healthy,stay close to God and grow more!

With Her

She is just so cute!

Cowboy girl!Adorable!

He is my uncle's kid but he don't like social.Been staying my room for few days!

-Emo-

Naked photo!LOL.If under age please close eye.=)

His Birthday

2009-12-26T03:09:00.004+08:00

It's already past 12am,so Christmas is over but for me Christmas should always be in us.Means we put Jesus first everyday.We celebrate it everyday.First of all belated Merry Christmas to all!It's a season of joy,peace,exchange gift but we shouldn't forget the main purpose and truth.This whole week is again very tiring.I couldn't find time to rest well.Let me start my story from Monday onwards.

Monday is an officially work for me.Though I have to face the PC whole day and it's a very quiet job but time pass very fast.I work from 9.30am till 8.30pm to rush my work finish.By the time back work is 9pm already.I've to clean my room,dinner and etc of stuff.About 11pm I already sleep peacefully.Ohya,guess what for my lunch?Korea food!That's crazy because it's my first time take korea food.Not bad I love it.=)

Tuesday went to work again till 5.30pm then meet Pragas and Aaron in Gurney.I bought my contact lens there and support the caroling from my church.After that we went to New World Park Old Town for drinks.By the time back home is like 1am!!Slept at 2am like that.

Wednseday,I didn't work because early in the morning I've to go deSantia Bridal Studio to take photos with my classmates then went E&O to see my classmate rehearsal their dance.By the time back home is like 1pm.I quickly pack my clothes,then went to S&J that opposite USM to buy Christmas gifts.Then went to Eileen house for make up and set my hair for my graduation dinner.It was a blast.Everyone are dressing up to kill!No matter guy or girl.I hate make up actually.It is so hard to remove it and mahuan.It ends about 11.45pm.So by the time back home is like 1am!It's crazy!But it's fun!Thank God for all the friends that I have in Chung Ling.We took a lots of photos.But one thing,I don't know use how long to wash my hair.Oh ya,quite number of them went to club actually.By the time sleep is 2am!

Thursday,wake up at 8am and work!Lunch at OFA restraunt.The food not bad,can be recommended.Thank God for strength!I finish about 5.30pm then straight to Pastor B house to countdown Christmas.We bring food and pot bless!It's Christmas Eve!Season of sharing the joy!We back home about 1am.I slept at 3am because have to wrap Christmas present!!!

Friday,IS JESUS BIRTHDAY!I went to church around 10.30am for service,then exchange gift.We went to QB for lunch and have such a great time but start to tired.We left at about 4pm.Moment touch down my bed,I landed.My aunties and uncles came back and stay in my house!Yes!My one uncle,aunt and their kid sleeping in my room now.Have to pack abit,no choice.Who ask my room is the nicest.Haha!My the another aunt n uncle sleep my bro's room.Why?Because tomorrow we are celebrating my grandma's birthday!!She is 70 but still rock!Thank God she is a believer already.I got 3 hours sleep then Pragas and Aaron pick me up for dinner in Island Glades.We were blessed.Then we drink tea and play games again.

3 hours sleep and make me still stay awake now.I feels weird when my uncle,aunt,and their kid sleep in my room together with me.I just feel weird and don't like that feeling.May be all the time I was sleeping alone.I love to be alone in room.So no kacau-ing when I'm in my room.

Tomorrow gonna be long day!So goodnight people!Merry Christmas and Happy Boxing day!

Crazy week

2009-12-19T14:03:00.008+08:00

Yes people!It have been a crazy week for me!Throughly!Let me describe what happened throughout this week.First of all,

Sunday

We always dinner with Ps.B house then fellowship at his place.Around 12am,we left,spontaneously we decided to join those who are watching shooting stars!Because I was like 'I want to watch!' and Pragas said 'if want to watch can go,so we went!Aaron and Shuba as well.' And we really saw that!I saw 7-8 shooting stars!It's amazing!But the peak time is like 2.30am but the cloud is coming.So cannot see anymore.I back home about 3am.My little brother came to me and he said wanted to watch but at the garden alone too scary,scared got snake.Then,we watch at our garden,hope that the cloud will go away.Anyway,he is having last SPM paper the next day.Crazy right?He is cute anyway.Haha!I slept at 5.30am that night.

Monday

I went to Segi College to help out the Christmas Party Deco.Met some of the new friends and Felicia(my Union schoolmate but never talk to each other).So,that's how God connect people.By the time back home is like 4 plus.Shower and went to my teacher house for dinner with some of my friend.There were 30 plus of us.Jam packed!We had steamboat!Yum yum!12 of us watch a movie-Drag Me To Hell.Idon't like to watch this type of movie because it's nonsense.I watch this movie somewhere before.So I know where is the scary part.Oh ya,we watch in a room with double decker bed andthe sound was so surrounding!Yang Sun(one of my classmate),he is so funny!Everytime when he was scared,he straight away lie on the floor and kick leg.Some of us purposely shout even though there is no scary part,and he was shocked.LOL!It was good time together anyway.They are awesome people!By the time back home and sleep is like 1plus or 2am.

Tuesday

I woke up early in the morning and help out in Segi College Christmas Party on media part.It was great.100+ students and lectures.They enjoy theirselves.Good job to the Segi Revo!By the time back home is about 4pm like that.Take a 2 hours nap and went for Youth Leaders' Meeting for the last time of the year.It was good time sharing and learning what had happened throughout this year.I thank God for His mercy and grace!I know He have been molding and training me.It was pain but thank God friends that stand along side with me.By the time back home I think is already 12 plus or 1am after supper.

Wednesday

I woke up about 8 plus,pick up Mikey and Mr.Moy to church to do cards and door gift for RED christmas party.But I left around 10am to school to take leaving school certificate!Yes,I'm officially leave school!But I miss school.Then,I went for a job interview.I got a job anyway and I'm officially start work on Monday.After that,I went back to church to help out.Then went back home bath and leave house to AIMST in SP.It was far!Yeah,with 2 cars -11 of us went down to SP to support AIMST CF that having Christmas Party.Our Miss Jo Rim is M.C-ing that night.We went to round round AIMST.It was HUGE!The stars there are alots!That's a quiet place,nice place for sleep but very ULU because if you don't have car there,there will be no entertainment.I feels like in the space when saw so many stars.We went back about 1am.By the time I reach home is 2plus and the next day I got work!

Thursday

The first day of work already late for 5 minutes.I didnt manage wake up on time.I use half an hour to bath and reach Gurney for my work.It's crazy!Bad reputation.I know.Haha!I work for 5 hours that day then went to Giant to buy the ingredient that I want to cook for the next day Christmas Party.By the time I back home is like 3plus.I started to cook the Jelly.I took half an hour nap before leaving for dinner and a drama presented in AOG.It was jam packed with people in Dewan Sri Pinang!But everything is so on timing and good.Good job to them.The dance,songs,drama is good.The setting of the stage awesome as well!They actually recruit a lot people for this thing.Back home and by the time is 12 plus again.

Friday

The day has came.RED Christmas Party!There were 45 of us but new comers is 30+.We have fun but got some naughty boys always bully me!Somemore say I no license and dont know how to start engine.And when I wanted to drop to girls.I really cannot start engine!My battery connection was losen.I've to ask my technician to come even at so late time!!Poor thing to him.LOL!Thank God I was in Sg.Ara,if I were in somewhere downtown.Habis lar.The party was good!Seed was sowed and we shall reap.Amen!

Saturday

I woke up at 5.50am for Leaders' Morning Prayer.Back home take a long sleep and here I am.

Yes,this is my whole week.Thank God my parents didnt say'You thought your house is hotel isit?' Haha.I know is crazy.I had a good rest and recharged!Rocks!!Thank God for the strength.

Prophetic Conference

2009-12-13T01:01:00.001+08:00

Prophetic Conference was held on the 9th Dec till 12th Dec.I couldn't attend most of the session but went for few.It was great.God used an Indian uncle to tell me what God want to tell me.He sit besides me yesterday 1st to 3rd session.Learnt never ever test God,because I said to God if HE want to speak to me,no need must be prophetic people or apostle but stranger also can.So here HE send this stranger.It nearly bring tears to me but thank God I keep back if not will feel so embarrassed.That uncle is a nice uncle.Throughout the conference learnt number of things.It was great to see 22 over nations came together.Thousand over people that came for every session and jam packed G hotel ballroom.This is my first conference that I attended the most people.The ballroom over flow and there are some chairs prepared outside the ballroom and also projector.First day of holiday already have fun though tired.But today managed to sleep a long deep sleep.Hehe.

The End Of High School

2009-12-10T11:00:00.002+08:00

I declare today is the independent day for Miss Moy(me)!!Yes,I finish the last paper-Chemistry Paper 1.Actually I don't really know what I'm doing on the paper 1.Because most of the questions I totally have no idea what is the answer.So,I ding dong diang lo..Haha.Well,is over,don't think about it till get my result and we shall see how.Can't believe STPM ended and I'm still alive.Must be God's grace and strength.I can't believe it is the end of High School.Even I want to go to High School again also cannot because there is no such thing called Form 7.I know sounds lame.LOL!Gonna rest and geared up for upcoming stuff to do!Love!=)

You Make My Night

2009-12-08T23:55:00.004+08:00

Yes,you make my night not day because I receive the card at night.I woke up from a long nap just now.Then went downstairs and saw an envelop written Moy Qing Ling.So that's me!I was like thinking whose that.I don't even really recognize the writing.You must be clear everything beside you on the table and write very nice nice for me.Haha!Yes!Is from Miss Kathleen Loke!My love who currently in Malacca.Is a graduation card and also goodbye card.Thank God I didn't cry again though feels like because when she left,I don't know cry how many days and night(exaggerate abit) .I'm doing good now.Sometimes distance make our friendship more stronger.Time to grow also.Oh ya,never see Miss Loke write so long and many words before.T.T.You are the best ok?We BFF ok?=) will see you soon my dear!! =P

Counting Down

2009-12-08T21:40:00.002+08:00

Two more days and I'm free from STPM.But actually I'm holiday-ing.I went to QB,Movie,E-gate and etc of places.Most importantly,I be part time driver sometimes.LOL.Yes,exam gonna over in 48 hours time.Tomorrow night gonna attend Prophetic Conference in G-hotel.Oh ya,I slept whole day today actually.Hehe.I woke up at 12 noon then slept at 2 plus again till 7pm like that.Cool right?Yes,I know I'm insane and sleep like a pig.I really have no mood for study because I'm feeling HOLIDAY!!!December gonna be holiday time for me...

Wake Up With A Dream Come True

2009-12-03T00:55:00.002+08:00

Today which is yesterday I wake up with a dream come true.I woke up at 3pm.Yes!Is 3PM!Because I just want enjoy sleeping!!While I was still blur-ing,I walk down to kitchen for lunch.Mum didn't go to work.So mum and dad was in the kitchen,she said 'you can get a new phone already because we(parents and elder bro) are changing to Digi.And with the RM900 airline for two user can get 2 phone,and dad airline is RM180.'Which means it came with the package,2 in 1,means you pay RM900 can buy phone and use to call for 1 year.I was like Praise the Lord!Mum said this 'See,you no need ask human,God provide,you should ask God,no need ask from Man.'I was like 'Well,she start preaching,but is true,I see how God works.'Since young,parents always said how bad and poor were their lives been in the past.So,they do not let us simply spend in extravagant stuff.So,even like phone we have to use until the screen pecah or no voice or cannot call out then only can change.Same to other stuff.After4 year plus,finally I can get a new phone!What a good day!But I'm so hate to transfer phone numbers all and also lost some of the stuff in my old phone.And reset all the stuff.It making me mad!!Oh ya..My phone is N5800.Haha,I know a lots people using(actually somebody bias and encourage me to buy that) hehe

The Beginning And The End

2009-12-01T04:30:00.002+08:00

Yes,today exactly is the beginning of the month of December.Yet,it is the last month of 2009.That's mean 2009 gonna end after 30days.I am preparing for my later's paper.So fast it gonna end soon.The resolutions that we set on beginning of the year,do we achieved?May be some do achieved and some failed.This year has been so fast again for me.Faster than the previous years.One year is faster than one year.One year can be long can be short.I think the longest time is when we are sitting for exam!!(agree?) hehe.One year can happen a lots of things.One year can make some people more mature.One year can cause someone lose their family members or etc of stuff.One year can make people to know more each other in friendship.One year some people left to pursue their study(yes,is talking about Miss Lina,Melody,Debbie and Kathleen) =)..So,whatever happened within a year can let cheer you up or bring you down.It doesn't matter anymore,because we looking forward to another new year!We learn mistake from the past and walking forward.2010!!Are we ready?Are you ready?or....Am I really ready for it?

Ulalah

2009-11-29T17:58:00.002+08:00

Yes!Ulalah!I just went for a hair cut just now.Initially,I planned to cut short because somehow I just cannot endure the long-ness.But graduation dinner is coming soon,if cut short not so nice.So the hairstylist actually suggested me to have some trim.By the way,I just knew that I have sensitive scalp.That's why my scalp is oily and always hair drop.I have to use sensitive scalp shampoo and have to blow my hair.Cannot leave the hair dry it own because inside can be making my scalp worst.Oh ya,that is BAPTAIN salon.The hairstylist is Ting.Is a she.It's quite high class kind.It got 3 branch in Penang I think.Even when she is washing my hair,there is actually a plasma tv hanging on the wall.It's to let the customer to watch while washing their hairs.I feels I'm a so called rich lady.LOL!Anyway,I cut my fringe!!!Oh ya,my hair consultant-Miss Eileen went with me.The outcome not bad.Hopefully,I will able to upload the picture!Hehe!=)

Chinese or Indian

2009-11-26T14:27:00.002+08:00

Chinese or Indian?Here's the story:

Yesterday,after my Math 1 exam,I changed my clothes and drove Pragas back to his parent's house.All the way with the Nissan.I know I'm very kind.LOL!Because he just finish his OP then I think his parent should very worry and wanted to see him.So,I offer him as a driver for that day lo.LOL!Somemore his mum fall down then he should be quite worry for his mum(though he didn't say).Because my mum was admitted before,I was quite worry so I know how it feel.Anyway,we had lunch there.The lunch is just so awesome because got a lot of dishes.I was wonder 'is this everyday's lunch for them?' Because at home,my lunch always 1 or 2 dishes.Theirs are 5-6 dishes with soups!One thing I love is their house very sound-sy.It means got a lots of sounds.They talk and play.My house always quiet all the time even though everyone is around.May be we already get use of that quietness,no movement.I think I miss those noisy-ness.Since young,everytime back home from school,my house always peacefully and extremely quiet.Though we say it's a good time of sleeping and resting but sometimes this place look like just a shell.Oh ya,Pragas have one niece and nephew.His niece is 3 years old but she doesn't look like 3 years old!She look like 5 years old because of 'well-build and well feed' haha!She very noisy and active.When you started play with her,she will a bit take advantage on you(Kids what).His nephew is cute!!!He is so small!!He just had his 2 years old birthday few weeks ago.And he like violent!!!He a bit emo that day because normally Pragas will play violent with him but Pragas just finish OP so cannot.Later wound open then is worst!But Pragas play with him like taking his hand and his feet and swing him.Pragas even use pillow to make him as a sandwich.Or press him with pillow.His nephew also laugh.Nonsense?Haha yes!Being there make me feels I'm lost.Because I totally don't know what are they talking.I met his parents,grandma(word war 2 woman),aunt and brother.His brother know how to speak mandarin!Amazing!LOL!Just imagine you are at a place where you totally don't know what are they talking!Oh ya,why do I say Chinese or Indian?Before the day,Pragas called his mum to let her know that we are coming and she going to prepare lunch for us.Then,her mum said if he cannot walk properly then no need,then ask him who is driving him.Pragas said 'Qing Ling will drive me.'(He knows that his mum sure cannot remember who is Qing Ling) so he added 'the one you said she look like Indian during Deepavali.' Oh goodness!Am I really doesn't look like Chinese?Because my Biology teacher (Mr.Lim Boon Chye) actually said and ask me whether am I a Chinese or mix within this 2 years.Funny right?So someone can tell me do I really look like not so Chinese?Pragas also said I don't really look like Chinese.Ahya,whatever,God made me unique!Haha!Self comfort.Continue the story is we back at 4.30pm and thank God we cross the bridge by 5pm and no jam.So yeap!By the time I back home is 5pm.And I exactly 24 hours didn't sleep.Yesyes,I know!A day without sleep but still awake!Thank God for strength.I straight landed my plane at 6pm till 12am then dinner(yes,I'm living in Eastern Country) and 1 pm landed my plane again till 12pm the next day.You can count how long is it.But it's sooooo nice!I have been so long didn't rest like that.Well,I'm recharged and going to burn the midnight oil again tonight!Yesyes!I left 2 more weeks and I'm freeeeeeeeee!!

Dear or Alive

2009-11-24T20:09:00.004+08:00

Let's see whether it's dead or alive.Last week was a hectic week for me.After my Biology exam,I feels like dropping the heavy stone on the ground but another stone that have to pick up.Last Friday,after CG I burned midnight oil from at night to midnight to morning till afternoon 1.30pm.All the way with the help by coffee!4 plus have to wake up and rush to church for drama practice as we are performing that night.Thank God for the strength just to stay on whole night.I didn't went to supper but go back home and sleep from 12am till 9am.What a great sleep!Thank God for rest.Sunday Morning,I took some rest and become Pragas' driver as he just finish his operation,so he cannot drive and went for banking and stuff.So I drove him around.He seem to like so happy out of some jungle or kampung or kandang!We went to hospital to change the bandage,then breakfast in the famous beef meatball in town,then banking around Beach Street.After that we went to Baskin Robin for Ice-cream!He is like EXTREMELY HAPPY!(Trust me!) Operation is so scary!Never ever easily fall sick or masuk hospital!I drove him back home,then my mum want to visit him,so I waited there for my mum and back home around 4.30pm.I totally cannot study at that time,so I decided to sleep from 6pm till 12am then woke up for study but who knows around 8 plus I already wake up and cannot sleep!*argh!Anyway,that night I didn't sleep at all.I studied Chemistry and PA 2.Around 6am,I was so stim and blur but still okok so I prepared and went to school for PA 2 exam.This is the paper that I never ever able to finish on time at the previous exam.I was so nervous.Thank God I finish doing the paper!Zun zun on time but my hand is shaking when I tie the paper with the string.Can you imagine that?3 hours of writing non-stop.Sometimes I do think the government should give more time for this paper!One down,Chemistry is up today.I actually fall asleep from Monday 2-6pm then 8pm-6am on Tuesday.That's mean I totally not well-prepared for my Chemistry!And I declare it just dead just now.I think I will get an F for it.Sad!Anyway,tomorrow is Math paper,and I'm not sleeping tonight again!Hopefully,I'm able to save my Math tomorrow and it will not pass away!5 more papers to go!Wohoo~

Black or White

2009-11-23T11:59:00.003+08:00

Hey all,I changed my link as you know.Why?Because I also feel the previous one a bit serious and deep.Haha!The reason I named it bownogrey because it stand for Black or White no Grey.A pastor from Sri Lanka actually said this we are whether in black or white.Just like light or darkness.No such thing as grey or semi-light or semi-dark.In God,even 0.0000001% of darkness pun tak ada and not allowed.We as His Children,we either chose to be black(to the darkness) or to white(to light-God).No grey ok?!For me I choose white.So,you choose!=)

Tick Tock Tick Tock

2009-11-21T05:47:00.002+08:00

Another night just gone!Just now take a cup of coffee(actually half packet only),and it helps me stay till now.Kopi boleh!Miss Moy boleh!Haha!Let's see what I'm going to do for this weekend.Of course is study!Monday going to have PA 2 exam (which is the paper that I always couldn't finish on time and die),Tuesday is Chemistry 2 (Not really die but actually can say half dead because I totally forget all the organic chemistry and inorganic chemistry,somemore have to study physical chemistry.Now actually burning my physical chemistry,hopefully it will finish before SNL),Wednseday is Math 1 (Half hanging dead because I got 4 more chapters to catch up,while the another 4 chapters though I revise before but forget again so poor thing.).Anyway,I really have to trust God again but not taking granted from Him!=) Good morning to everyone!! 6 more minutes to 6am!I think I'm gonna go out buy some breakfast.Hungry!Hopefully,I will not feel sleepy later.Hehe!Oh ya,tonight going to act a skit with my CG member in SNL! =P

One Down

2009-11-19T20:09:00.002+08:00

Yes!One down!That is Biology paper 2.God's grace has upon me.Before few hours of the paper,my heart dip dub dip dub so fast.I'm afraid I cannot do well because I didn't finish the study.The DNA,Protein synthesis,Animalia,Genetic mutation and etc of topics didn't finish..Thank God that the questions didn't come out with those that I don't know.Though,I still got one questions that I totally don't know how to do,so kelentung through.Hopefully Biology will get a good results because really put a lots of effort on it.There's are some Biology cartoon that I googled.Hehe.Enjoy!=)

停此了呼吸

2009-11-18T21:53:00.002+08:00

像停此呼吸海还是想停此呼吸呢？明天就是了，读了那么久，我真的不想读了。好累，希望会收到你的鼓励，可是一切就是个空。听着偏爱这首歌，我觉得我不会去偏爱，因为梦该醒。感觉现在很烂，不会再走笨蛋的路，因为聪明人都从错误中学习，跌了再站起来。呼吸的感觉又是怎样了呢？

好像累了

2009-11-17T23:12:00.004+08:00

Suddenly I feel like posting in Mandarin so for those who couldn't understand,I'm sorry.=)

好像真的累了。曾经我写过这一句话，那是一个月前吧!还剩三个星期就可以飞了呀!好期待漫长的假期呀！好想可以坐在海边，吹吹冷风，与耶稣谈谈心。心有时好像变得冷冰了，连自己都不认识了。也许这一次的伤害是够厉的了。好想离开槟城一下下，住了这里十九年，有快乐的，有伤心的，觉得这个地方我最不能放下的是一群的好友，而最想放下的也是一群好友。总之，这个地方将会成为我不想最留念的。因为一切一切的伤心让我不想留念了。想要离开，可是我知道我的最终点是这里。时间过得非常快，一年又要过了。今年，学了不少东西，经历了不少东西。哭也哭过了，烦也烦够了。渐渐的忘了时间，一年长大了不少，也不会犯一样的错误了，不会再被骗了。突然想去潜水，看看里头的鱼儿，感觉鱼儿游过身旁。那种感觉多么自在，好想忘记读书一半而流泪的感觉及心痛,睡觉流泪的感觉，梦到你而流泪的感觉。想去个没人认识的地方，没有负担。想要一醒可以看到大海。天亮了，也该醒了。为自己用双手抹了泪，又是过着新生活的时候了。=）无论你的回应是什么，我已决定了，决定不会自动找你了，因为我知道要是我不找你，你也不会找我的。何必又何苦呢？何必自己找个难处呢？就算是我误会了，我的决定已定，因为我想这是大家要的结局吧！少数服从多数，就算是心痛，大家开心就好。心痛的感觉很快就会过，一年吧，或者两年吧，反正一年很快就会过的。反锁了心，又是另一个旅途。不用问为什么，因为我知道你会说尊重我的决定。你的不挽回的习惯也变成了我的习惯。男生嘛，大部分还不是都这样，习惯就好。

Looking Forward

2009-11-14T11:57:00.003+08:00

2012 indeed is the movie that everyone looking forward to watch.Exactly at 12am on the 13th of Nov,I went for this movie with Aaron and my brother.4 theaters are playing the same movie at 12 am in QB!Isin't crazy?I think the director own money like crazy!We were in theater 3,it was crazy because there are still people choose to sit 1st row though it's hard to watch.Well,we got to sit the last row because we bought the ticket before the day!Haha!Smart people!=) The 3rd floor and 4th floor parking lots actually full!Can you believe it or not?The movie is 3 hours.After the movie,when you come out,you can see a lots of working adults,married couples,families!I wonder the next day no need work?Because it's 3am!!The movie is nice!Worth it!After watching this movie,I realize nowadays there's a lots of doomsday movie.Well,I think everyone is looking forward for doomsday?Isin't?True right?Though everyone is looking forward and know there will be end day but people don't even know there's a sovereign God above all this things.In Bible,there's a purpose for the end day.That's the time Christian gonna smile and go to the place where Jesus will bring us.But that's the time where faith is tested,whether you going to denied Jesus?That's the time.Today we can said like Simon Peter 'Lord, I am ready to go with you to prison and to death.' in Luke 22:33. Sounds cool right?But when the time come,whether are you going to denied Jesus is gonna be reveal.By the way,I salute Noah!Really!You know why?Because in this movie,the ships that they made is metal!!Somemore a bit nonsense because engine cannot start if the door didn't close.And the ships needs a lots of worker to build.They used China worker but Noah build his own and all wood.Noah is a cool man!My Lord God is the greatest of all because it is His work!=)

Counting Down

2009-11-12T05:55:00.006+08:00

Yes,is time for count down.Well,good morning to every human being in this world!Now is exactly 6am!Goodness!Another night which couldn't afford for sleep.Life isin't like that?Life have to continue goes on no matter what.Never ever give up because your Big Daddy never give up on you.Honestly now very awake yet still stim stim.After STPM I want have a 24 hours sleep!!I already have some plan for the days after STPM.First two weeks I'm gonna chill!On the 9th to 12th Dec,I'm going for Prophetic Conference!Yes,though my last 2 paper is on 9th and 10th December.But both papers are Paper 1,so should can be made it.Want to know what destiny that God had placed for me and others.I believe it gonna be a great time!It started with the night on 9th then the following days are on morning and night session.On 10th Dec,I'm going bring along my clothes to G-hotel to change then to the conference hall though I will be late for half an hour but should be alright!=) On 14th Dec,Go for gathering dinner together with my classmate then graduation dinner at the second week.At the same time we gonna have Christmas Party which called harvest event too on somewhere one week before Christmas.Celebration of the gift that Big Daddy given to us.Christmas that week which is 24th of Dec I plan to go down Malacca or KL to find my lover!!Well,I got 2 lover because they are I love and miss the most that is Miss Kathleen and Miss Melody at respective state.Sadly to say I only can choose one state,so gonna look for bus first.(Don't jealous if I couldn't go find any of you ok?).Time quite rush for me because on the 26th Dec afternoon I've to come back because is Birthday celebration for my super duper rocky grandma!Yes!Got buffet somemore!For those who are not in Penang,sorry I couldn't invite you.=) She is 70 already I think.I couldn't really remember.But I hope that she will continue healthy,don't always sad or worry my cousin brothers and sister,hope that she don't eat so much because she is getting fatter and fatter!I prayed that she will see me get married and have my own child!(Though it still very long,that's why have to pray she continue healthy la!) I love her cook!When she stayed at my place,she will always cook different kind of food.Sometimes Asam Laksa,sometimes Lam Mee and etc.Hopefully,I will be inherited with my mum,dad and grandma gene--that is know how to cook nice and different kind of food.Can you imagine?This is only the first two weeks?!*Faint* But all this things will only happened after 1 month!Just one month!After my two weeks holiday,I've to start to look for job because I need to earn some money to pay for my study in KL from March to end of May.At the same time,I think few books are waiting for me to read and do some restoration and equip myself such as Bondage Breaker,Restored and Every young women's battle.Bondage Breaker and Restored is written by Neil T.Anderson (Both books are from Eileen,thanks ya!).Then,Every young women's battle,actually I not yet buy the book.I saw it in Borders.Initially when I google,planning to buy this book but Borders don't have to stock.But last few days I saw it's only one book at the Christian corner.Somemore is RM40 plus.Hmm..Hopefully I will get this book as soon as possible.But every book have to one step at a time!Yeap!I just can't imagine the day I'm set free from STPM!Have a great day!

*For those who reading feeling why am I talking so differently,because I'm hyper now and whole night didn't sleep.So yeah!Don't feel weird because I am still I am.*Yawn* Night!

Too Free

2009-11-10T16:34:00.003+08:00

Yes,I think I'm having too much of study till too free to edit this template within 2 hours.Haha!The previous template is green in theme.Everything just green.While this time is black and white theme.Everything is just black and white.Hope you love the colour =)

Graduation

2009-11-10T00:41:00.008+08:00

That's it.Here it goes Form 6 life.One and a half year,I started to miss my class.They are just super awesome!Last Friday we had our Graduation Day!Honestly,I can see the teachers in CLHS really treat their students very differently compare to other school.I think that's one of the reason they able to train up students who can play and study.After the ceremony,we have some entertainment while waiting for those important people to leave school after their meal.There is one group of Form 5 student performed as a group with a song.They bring their own drum set,guitar,electronic guitar.After that we had a grade 8 ballet dancer who is a guy perform for us(First time see live guy dance ballet).Then,our teacher-Mr.Lye perform a song who called 'Feng Yu Wu Zu' by Zhou Hua Jian.He is a nice teacher!I love his class actually.He teaches me PA last year.He always story telling about school and etc of stuff.Finally,everyone(F5 n F6) stand up together sing Peng You by Zhou Hua Jian too.You can see student throw paper and paper airplane too but the teachers didn't scold or what because they understand is our day!Isin't awesome?Chung Ling really a nice school!Love it!Friends!Separation is pain but it make us be stronger.Here's are some of the photos:

Seem To Be Short Yet Is A Journey

2009-11-05T01:21:00.004+08:00

Is a Journey

Recently,the biggest news for CLHS is our senior James Khor was drowned on the 1st of November.Though I don't know three of the victims but in my heart a bit down because he is my senior.Though I don't even met him before but still a life just gone like that.Recently,I always read news through online such as STAR,Kwong Hwa and Guang Ming news.A lots of news related to young generation which from 12-20 years old.In my heart was thinking 'this devil is doing something to the young gen.' Is time for prayer,don't wait any longer.Some how this few days,there are a lots of thoughts after seeing all these things happened.Politic issues in Malaysia is not the only issues but there are social and economic.Social issues not just about racial issues but also gangsterism and etc.Young peoples are dying not just spiritually but physically.We have to do something.Today when I was driving to pick my bro up from school,I saw a house that having funeral.In my heart thinking 'Another one who passed away.Life is just...'.When I was about to reach home,I saw one big family sending their grandpa or dad the last journey.Heart thinking 'what happened to this few days?Funeral always meet me?' Thoughts coming like 'Life are so short,stop doing nothing,have to do something,get saved and etc.' Life is a journey,though you can say it long but it can be say as short.After James Khor died,a lots of friends and family members were so sad and down.We never know when is our day will come.We never know when is the people around you will go out of sudden.So,make full use of it.Don't wait till the day you regret.When I read the news,I was thinking 'what will he think during that time while shouting help?' Will he think 'I don't want die yet,there are still a lots of things to be done and not yet done.I still got a lots of words to tell all my friends and love ones.I still have a bright future waiting for me.I don't want just die like that.' A lots of question can come on that time but I think the main thing is 'I don't want to die yet.' Last question--Are you afraid of dying?

Fatty fatty

2009-10-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

Been crazy for few days because I keep whacking food like crazy.I think by the time I finish my STPM I will be like don't know how heavy am I.Friday I whack Hokkien Mee,Char Glass Noodle,Milo ice and 10 chicken legs.Saturday before SNL I whack 9 inch Subway then supper ate Curry Mee.Sunday I took lunch then 5pm took Tom Yam in Sunway Carnival,around 7plus I took Bee Hoon Goreng and Baskin Robbins for dinner.Today,I took lunch then dinner,then supper-Laksa and Kaya Butter Toast bread in Old Town.Crazy right?May be I just release stress through taking food.Dangerous man!!Have to control!!If not can dong ceng!What an unhealthy way to release stress.I think I will soon become fatty if continue to do so.Ok,let's back a bit emo here.I've been realize this few days,sometimes people's words or promise can be so zero.Why I say so?Because I realize.Not all people but some kind of people.Their words already so hard to trust.Even a person that is close with you before can be a nonsense right now for you.I think you successful make me to realize or feels that.I should congratulation your work works.Your mission achieved.I've nothing to say anymore.I've geared up for my study.No time for me to swing around or spin my mind.Everything already have been a history or part of the story.Besides that,I realize something which is isit nerve/artery/vein cause human's mood change so fast?Because people said 'KIN' got problem better don't go near them.They can joke in front of you when a lots of people around but they will super serious and sarcastic with you when just you and he/she.They are just dangerous and scary because it seems to be number of humans are hippocrates.But who am I to judge right?Just let God do the job in this situation.Have to study now!Bye all!

Can't Believe

2009-10-18T14:09:00.002+08:00

Yes,I can't believe I just sent her off this morning!Early in the morning,after a big rain,the weather look so nice to sleep.I nearly cannot wake up.I went to her house while she still sleeping like a pig.Her parents ask me to ask her to wake up.So I jump up her bed and shake her.I had some talk with her parents.Actually I think I have a good bonding with her parents.Haha!Last night actually cried.T.T eyes actually quite bengkak.Aunty and uncle ask me to have breakfast with them.So I went with the family for breakfast nearby Sri Nibong area.After the breakfast,they have to go already.We have a hug,I nearly tears drop but thank God didn't if not very pai se haha!I will miss you a lots my dear..Her sister send me back to their house to take my car.I have a good talk with her as well.I think I can be their house punya daughter also already.Haha!Went back home and sleep!Too tired already.Around 1 plus,Eileen smsed me,I straight called her.Talk for awhile because she ask me Kath already left?While on the phone,tears drop again.Cannot control it.My best best buddy ever,miss you okay?No body accompany me study already k?T.T you have to always come back!If not I will whack you!Take care there!Catch up more!LOVE!

A Best Friend,A Sister and A Lover

2009-10-18T01:49:00.006+08:00

After so many days I didn't blog due to some reason.But now I would like to dedicate this post to a friend of mine,a sister of mine,and a lover of mine--Kathleen Loke who leaving after few hours from now to Malacca(MMU) for 4 years Degree in Engineering.She is like a best friend,sister and lover.We get to know each other since end of 2007.We connected through Wenby and media.Initially we played floorball together as well.2007-2009,not long and not short.So many things that we did together.Tears that drops for each other.The argument that we have,the misunderstand that we have,and a lots of rubbish that we been through make our friendship become strong.When there is a period,our misunderstand till very deep,we cried,we confess and transparent with each other.I thank God for such a friend.A friend who care and love.We sleep together,go places together,serve in the same ministry,go to the same CG and etc.I will miss you Kath,seriously.Thank you for all the memories,the caring and the love.Remember the days we lie down on the beach and look at the stars at night?Remember the days we talk in the car till 3am?Remember the days I cried in front of you?I'm like sending a best friend away.I hope that this BBF spirit will never end even after 4 years.I know Malacca is a place where you want to go and God want you to go.May God be with you throughout your Uni life.Thank you for being with me when I'm in need of someone.Different people have different path and life.May your life prosper tremendously.Enjoy your 4 years there!Remember to keep in touch!Forever you will be my best friend,sister and 'lover' till I found my real life partner la!Haha!Start emo already..Cried actually while I'm typing..People come and people go,I can't believe you are leaving like a person that so close and dear to me.No people will accompany me go Borders or McD study already.T.T.

You know I always talk nonsense and especially in the deep of me.I know sometimes you cannot tahan.Haha!You know la..I always like that =) Thanks for the perseverance as well.Haha!I'm proud of you!Keep firing your passion!Love!

I love you my sister! XOXOXO

Fruitful Part 3

2009-09-25T13:05:00.006+08:00

Wow,another week is going to end again.Time isin't pass too fast for me?Pass like crazy.Been a quite jam packed week and fruitful week actually.
Monday(night):
I actually went for movie-G Force after that with Nicky,Melody,Eileen and Manfred.We met Pragas and Darren who going to watch Where Got Ghost.By the time I'm home is 2am!!Woohoo..
Tuesday:
Thank God for a day to let me sleep.I slept till 1pm then went to Old Town for study with Kath and Yuh Ting.But tak jadi because no mood.Destroyed.Around 5plus,Kath and I joined Eileen and Nicky for hiking.I think I didn't go for hiking since I'm F1?Gosh!!How am I to make it?Every time I hike,I will not enough oxygen and keep yawning,heart beat *dub dub* super fast,feels want to vomit.It make me scared!!But I go for it.So,same thing happen when I hike the hill.I quickly squad down.But I want to end the journey,so hike,rest hike.And finally,I make it!Wohoo!4 of us went for Banana Leaf!!We whack!And of course among them,Nicky and I whack the most!Haha!We went back around 9 plus.I met Pragas and Julian in Old Town.We talk nonsense.Looking at both of them,that's really funny when they talk.
Wednesday:

I woke up around 12plus,I took my lunch then went out to buy Watermelon and Honey Dew for that's night BBQ.About 2pm,I reach Baptist Book Store in Pulau Tikus.I wanted to buy a new Bible because the Old Bible that I have is New Century Version.The english is easy tounderstand.I love that Bible but some words are missing actually.So yeah!I bought a New Women's Devotional Bible in NIV version.It cost RM68 like that.

My New Bible

Around 4pm,I left and went to Teng Chong(my classmate) grandma's house for BBQ.It's a kind of classmate event.We had a good time there.Whole night,I smell like BBQ because I'm sitting in front of the BBQ thing.We enjoy our Baba Nyonya kind of BBQ haha!I dropped May Chen and Jia Hui back home around 10.30pm like that.After that,I met Justina,Pragas,Darren and Kathleen in Greenlane McD for ice-cream!Whole body actually very smelly and sticky.But I wanted to join them so yeah!We went back home around 12.30am.I quickly bath once I back home.I washed my hair for TWICE!But it's still got the BBQ Smell!!!If I wash three times,I think I will lost my hair!

Group Photo!

Not so Baba Nyonya Style

The Baba Nyonya Style

Thursday:
One day down!Early in the morning,Kath,Pragas,Melody,Manfred and I went for breakfast for Dim Sum which opposite KDU.We went with two car because Kathleen need to go for class after that.So I become the driver of the day,fetch Pragas,Melody and Manfred around after the breakfast.Around 11plus,Pragas and I went to INTI to share Recess Revo.It's great to see Veronica have the passion to adopt RR.Though the time are only half an hour,but I think it's still great.After INTI,I quickly went back home and take my sleep.Because I've been not enough sleep for few days.Around 6.45pm,I wake up and prepare to go YTM training with Pragas in Faithful City Church in Farlim.It's a English and Tamil Service church.Some churches want to start youth ministry in their church.So,Pragas shared why youth ministry are important and how to run a youth ministry.We got about 15 leaders included some of the Senior Pastors.It's really really a good time.I've learn a lots of things.Pragas really did a great job by God's strength!By the way,Pragas said 'Literally I'm teaching all Indian leaders.' Then,I'm thinking 'Wow,I'm the only Chinese just now!Amazing!It never happened in my life before!'But I didn't feel uncomfortable actually.Hehe!I enjoy the time there.After the session,Pragas asked the Senior Pastor of the church whether want to close in prayer or say anything.The Senior Pastor suddenly said 'We ask our sister(which is me) close in prayer.' I was like 'Wah!!Terkejut actually,but it's a good opportunity!Awesome!'We ended around 10plus,then we went for so called dinner(because we didn't take our dinner),should be supper,in Apex Cafe.I ate the curry chicken with bread.It's quite nice actually.By the time everything bilibalabilibala,it's about 12.30am.So,we went back right after finish the dishes because Pragas already ding ding dong dong and tired already.
Friday:
Right now is 2pm,time pass fast.I should study right now for my STPM.Nothing much today.Tonight we have CG!!Enjoy!
It has been a fruitful week though it's tired.But it's meaningful for me.Thank God for everything!Thank God for a wonderful classmate,friends,family and everything around me,inside and out of me!

Fruiful-Part 2

2009-09-21T21:39:00.002+08:00

Wow,so fast,it's Monday again!But it's holiday!Here's what happened in this 2 days which is super fruitful,fun,full!
Sunday:
Early in the morning I was waken up by a sms around 8am.So,I started to prepare myself and get ready to wait for Kathleen to pick me up.All the leaders meet in church around 10am.With two white and shinning car--My V and Nissan Sentra we went to the most famous Koay Teow Teng with meat ball.The meat ball is the specialities!!Yummy!After our breakfast,again we went to the chalet.We drop our stuff,then meet up together and have some meeting.Somehow,I think because of the setting,it make everything very chill and fun.It's not look like very formal.Feels good!I love the setting.Anyway,we skip our lunch.We ate bread for our tea time.It's really a fun that we gather around,I love the laughter that we have.Around 4 plus,the sky seem to be very sad,so it started drizzling.I was praying 'No!!!Stop the rain!Stop right now!I don't want hear any DI DI DA DA sound!'But it didn't immediately stop.The people are running out.The rain started to stop.We went in and decided to sit Banana Boat!Wohoo!It's my first time play water sport.Shout like crazy but end up,they didn't let us drop into the water.After that,6 of us jump into the water!Followed by Debbie and Samuel.Floating on the water is so nice!Hehe!=) Our dinner story is too long,to cut short,we round and round because a lots of people and cars,end up with have our dinner in The End Of The Earth.We realize that there is a road sign written 'Jalan Teluk Awak'--Your road?Haha!We like 10 days didn't take our meal like that,whack the food like crazy!A good time of sharing and discussion.
Monday:
Wake up,devotional with Ps.Sam.After that we took our breakfast in the room.Somehow,I just very hungry.I took 2 cups of Maggie mee.Hehe..To cut short again,we went lunch in Gurney Chili's.We celebrated Darren and Kathleen birthday.I'm actually full like crazy.They always said I'm a big eater.Hehe.I think I gain weight..*want cry already!!We back home around 4pm.I quickly throw all those dirty clothes into the washing machine.The moment I touch down on my bed,I straight go into my sweet sweet dream.So here I am,woke up at 8.30pm.4 hours of hibernating refresh me a lots!
Again,it has been a fruitful day since Friday.And again,I wish everyday gonna be a fruitful day.Have to start to study for my STPM already.So yeah!Blessing to everyone!=)

Fruitful Part 1

2009-09-20T00:51:00.003+08:00

I've went through a stressful week due to my trial exam.Don't know how many pimples pop out and hairs dropped.Trial exam in Chung Ling is speechless because it consider the hardest exam among schools in Penang as they want to achieve the top rank.Thank God the government suddenly declare that yesterday(Friday) is a holiday!So,right now I left one paper to sit for.Let's start my story from Thursday.
Thursday:
I finish my Biology trial.After school,of course is the best time to sleep till what time you want.But I just want to watch movie and laugh or cry.Whatever.So,I tried to ask around but no body can make it.Initially I planned to watch alone but I'm still hesitating.So I drove all the way to QB for movie while raining like cats and dogs.But,I saw a lots of cars and jam at the QB parking lots.Then,I decided change my plan.I never does such things before.I don't like being alone when I'm outside.But this time I changed.I drove alone while the rain drop by drop on my car.Listening to worship songs and thank God I bring along my Bible.So,I went to Bandar Perda and park there.I sit in my car,listening to worship songs,read bible and pray.What a good time.I went back home around 11plus.
Friday:
I went for movie around 12.10pm.I go back home right after movie.I decided to clean my room!Because it always become very messy and dusty during exam.Books will be everywhere because no time to clean.So,I decided to clean all the stuff.I started sweeping,vacuuming,moping,change bed sheet,wipe my tables and etc.By the time finish is like 4.30pm.After that I quickly take a shower as I keep sneezing.My younger brother cooked spaghetti for me.So sweet right?Haha!After my mean,I went to my room and look at it.I very satisfied.So,I started to do some reading and preparation for CG.I had an awesome time in CG!We had 13 people in the house yesterday night!Two new comers and Pragas' friend(Joshua) who came from Singapore.Good time of sharing and bonding.We celebrated Kathleen,Marianne and Joshua's(different Joshua) birthday!Everytime,our food just overflow and get a lots of blessing!The sky keep raining,so that night itself Kathleen have to be our driver to drive us in and out.Pragas,Joshua,Joel,Wilson and I actually went to Jelutong for Oblong Burger right after CG.I was super full!!!But the burger seriously nice and unique.Back home around 1am.
Saturday:
I woke up around 6am.Both of my legs and joints are super pain due to the rain(I know I'm old ok?).Since I got nothing to do and not feel like sleeping.So,after my bath,I watch Fireproof.It's really an awesome movie!It's about marriage but I do encourage everyone to watch because don't wait till you married only watch because it's going to be late.From 6am till 12pm,I watch movie,devo,pray,do some reading,and play some FB games.It's crazy because I never done that before.It's a great time!!Around 12pm I take a sleep till 3pm.After that,I went to KJC to meet Eileen and Pragas.We bring 6 KJC kids to QB McD.They are Wei Jie,Wei Jing,Benjamin,Rajern,Rui Wei,and Jia Xin.2 of them are Standard 6 and the rest Std 5.This is my first time I'm bringing this kids.I feels like Big Sister.Haha!They are just active but thank God I can speak Mandarin,so easily connect with them.Connect very fast and well.SNL was great!Ps.Sam sermon was good!
This few days been a fruitful.I hope that this whole Raya Holiday gonna be a fruitful one!=)

What A Girl Wants?

2009-09-15T23:56:00.003+08:00

Battlefield

2009-09-11T01:12:00.002+08:00

Familiar of this song-Battlefield?It's by Jordan Sparks.Yeah,tomorrow is 11th September!My trial starting tomorrow onwards.Just now went to Sunshine McD alone.Sometimes alone is great but sometimes no.Keep looking at different kind of graph make my head spinning.With the music that keep repeating,the song(Yahweh) already stuck in my brain.I think I repeat the song more than 50 times already =).Tomorrow going to sit for my PA paper2.I already want to Dong Cheng already!Tomorrow I'm going to the battlefield.I'm wearing the armor of God going to the hall.Eyes are dropping but still need to study.Looking at my younger brother study till midnight and have an hour of sleep only.This is terrible!Nothing much for this week I think.Have to 'Ohm' for my study.Do my best but let God do the rest.=)

Life

2009-09-01T23:44:00.003+08:00

Life is pretty short.It's like a blink of eyes,I'm 19 years old now.This few days,I only really realize that life is so short.Though a lots of times I read Bible and saw verses that mentioned life is short.Our home is not here,we are just a passenger pass-by here or staying temporary here only.There's a heavenly home waiting for us.Within this 2 months,I heard a lots of people passed away.1 of Georgetown School student pass away in an accident,2 of my church friends' grandparents pass away,1 of my church friends' cousin passed away and 1 of my schoolmate's(ex-primary schoolmate) mum pass away.Just within 2 months,5 people passed away!The above 5 cases are not all old age people but there are 17 years old,there are 30-40 years old and 50 above.Instantly,your life can just snap and taken away.But question did you done the task that God given to you when you are living in earth?Are you prepared to meet the King of Kings and Lord of Lords?Since,life is short,so do you just spend your quality time with your loves ones or do what you can do just to bring souls to God's kingdom?May be a blink of eyes,I'm already 80 years old!Haha!How about funeral?
Here's my funeral that I want:
(1) No white and black please..Though people said is to respect.But if you want to respect me
then decorate the place with different colour(rainbow colour?It represent promises) or wear
colourful clothes.
(2) Some hymns but not all!Can play Hillsong,Planetshakers,Paradise Church and etc of Praise
and Worship songs.
(3) My love ones please don't too sad.Can cry but don't always cry!=) always smile!
So yeah!That's just my simple request.=) Cherish for what you have right now,cherish your life!And do whatever you can do for God's kingdom!=)

Blood Donation

2009-08-31T02:40:00.003+08:00

Yes!Today I went to church for blood donation!Hurray!It was fun!It was my first time =)!!It's my first time to know my blood type as well!It's O positive.Hmm..Now I know!It's not that scary!Thank God I didn't faint!=) Thank God I didn't have low blood pressure like my mum!=) I'm fearfully and wonderfully made by God!So,I'm super healthy!!It's just so cool!Looking at my blood flowing!Hehe!Yeah!Today is my first time as well to babysit of Bernice(My sister)!When the service start,my papa(Kenny) and mama(Su Mei) are serving in worship team!So I the sister of course going to take care of her!Actually I scared she cry!Because when she cry,I don't know what she want!So,I bring her into a room to on the air-cone in case she cry because of the temperature.Who knows!She make some geram noise.I scared she will cry,so I bring her out walk walk in the main sanctuary while Praise and Worship is starting.I show her some mission trip photos and told her who are they(though she is definitely lost).Then,I saw her yawn!Haha!Good sign!So she start to lie on my shoulder(It's her first time lie on my shoulder as well!).I was like wohoo!Just a few minutes,she fall asleep!Her saliva just flow on my t-shirt!!It's not smelly at all,the feeling is good!Haha!Insane already!She is just so sweet and cute!But you know what,carry her while she is sleeping make my back very pain!Pastor Sam look at me and said'Ok la,can pass already.Haha!' LOL.So we went into the room again.A mother with her 4-5 months old baby came in,then she smile at me.After that she told me 'Initially I thought wow there is such a young mother!Then,only recognise is Su Mei's baby.' =.='' What to do?I'm the sister.But it's my privilege to take care of her!Love her so much!Just can't wait to see her grow up!Today is quite a fruitful day for me!=)

Hurricane

2009-08-19T22:08:00.003+08:00

After the hurricane,I think things seem to be started to settle down.Nothing much can do but to go back to God.Trials is coming up in 20 days times.Really got no good memory to memorise all!!How??Don't know.Just study!Today I had a very LOL conversation with my mum on the phone(It's the first time in my entire life that I able to laugh when talking with her on the phone).Here it goes the conversation:

Ring Ring Ring :
Me : Hello.
Mum: Hello.Lu Si Moy Qing Ling?(You are Moy Qing Ling?)
Me : Har.(Yes)
Mum: Lu Si Moy Qing Ling r?(You are Moy Qing Ling r?)
Me : HAR!(YES!)
Mum: Wa Si Medalin.(I'm Medalin.)
Me : Har.(Yes.)
Mum: Lu Si Wa Cha Bo Kia r?(You are my daughter r?)
Me : Har.(Yes.)
Mum: Wa Bo Mi Eh Ki Lu Lo.(I can't really remember you lo.)
Me : Har.(Yes.)
Mum: *Laugh.
*The conversation goes on as normal after that.She asked me to check the homemade yogurt.

Throughout the conversation,I just realise I just said 'har'.That's it.When I'm listening to her.I was like what is this la!!Isit too stress due to my elder brother didn't go to work for 3 days?Must me mad already (SIAO) .She did the same thing to my younger brother.My younger brother couldn't stop laughing.Haha!That's really the lamest joke of the year!!I'm telling my brother 'I think our family member all SIAO already.' =.='' and =)

Butterfly

2009-08-16T15:59:00.002+08:00

Butterflies all around my heart and head.Don't know what's the next step.Don't know what to do.Don't know what is best.Just don't know.I wish it will be back normal as it should be.But I know it will never ever be back the same.A blink of eyes,not too long period of time,but hurricane came.I don't want questions anymore.So stop questioning.Tired of answering,tired of explaining,tired of standing,tired of everything.I will no longer step into it anymore.I just don't want to bother anymore because I don't have time to bother,I don't have strength to bother.So here I am walk away.Too many things around me,too many things happened around me.So cool!

True Blue Friends

2009-08-06T00:09:00.003+08:00

A question for you : Do you have true blue friends?Honestly I have.They are my brothers and sisters in Christ!Not to pretend Holy or what,but it's a truth.Recently,I'm seeing my friends around me who not saved yet though they might treat their friends well face to face but on the back,they backstabbing each others not just 1 party like crazy.So sad to hear that when people say 'The world is like that,the reality is like that,the society is like that,and you are just too naive.' Well,the truth is they don't know the truth and they are lost.I appreciate and glad that God has places so many good and wonderful friends and families around me.Remember,before you want saying people's bad attitude or personalities,look at yourself.If you able to say that 'I don't have any bad attitude or bad personalities',then you are lying yourself.If you said 'His/her attitude or personalities worst than mine.',so that's means you have some bad attitude as well.Even though you might lesser than his/hers but remember, less doesn't make you have the right to say others because you have the same problem as well.So who are we to judge sometimes?Only God alone who able to judge.Even someone done something wrong,do you confront to that person and correct them?It's to help them.But nowadays,people's mindset is friends are to 'use' or so called take advantage.Sounds scary right?They are just asleep.One day,when the right time come,they will know because I know God gonna tell them the truth!Be appreciate those who around you,though they might fail you but remember you might fail people as well.They are not for us to judge!Love your neighbour and you will see the change!

There's A Reason

2009-08-02T18:18:00.006+08:00

I don't know what is your reason,but I know that I have a reason to dance,sing,passionate and etc.I know my Lord of Lords and King of Kings!Enjoy this song!It touches me.I hope it will same goes to you as well!=) Life is short!Quickly know Jesus!And you will have eternal life!!You need Him!

Now's the time
Let the redeemed celebrate
If you know what I know
You can't wipe the smile off your face
Oh people, stand up and praise

[CHORUS]
There's a reason to dance
There's a reason to sing
Of the sacred romance
With our Savior and King
We lift up our hands
We fall on our knees
To the Son of Man
The reason we are free

There's a reason

All glory to
The King of Kings, Lord of Lords
Oh the value of Your worth
No worldly treasures can afford

And we praise You forevermore

[REPEAT CHORUS]

There's a reason to stand
There's a reason to shout, to shout Your name on high
So we take up our cross, there's a reason to die
Because Jesus is alive

There's a reason

[REPEAT CHORUS]

There's a reason
You are the reason
The reason we are free

Exclusion

2009-07-30T23:20:00.002+08:00

This time I chose to ask for exclusion.I want to give others a chance and also a chance for me to enjoy and rest =).Been quite exhausted recently.Besides studying still studying.But recently enjoy spend my time in Borders.Listening to my MP3 and study!Like living in my own world and cut off from others.=P Had a cup of hot vanilla latte just now while studying.It feels good!Recently,I don't know what happen to DIGI.Till now my last month bill not yet close bill.They suppose close my bill on the 15th of July.And my bill is so high when I checked through my phone.I was like what is this?!I made a called to the Center around 10.30pm.Nearly,scold them already.They ask me to wait for the real bill come out first.If anything wrong,then only make the report and etc.=/ That's crazy!So,for DIGI postpaid user please be aware of your bill.A lots of my friends have the same case as well for now.

A Chance

2009-07-28T21:04:00.004+08:00

'When people do not give you the chance,guess what?God give you the chance.The chance always come from God.'This thought came to me few days ago.A lot of things running in my mind.I wish it would just goes off as my trial is coming up. You might wondering what are the things running in my mind.Yeah,I choose not to tell you here =).I have given by God a lots of chance in some ways.In some ways,God use me to give others a lots of chance.But people seem to be not appreciate it.It's breaks God's heart and my heart as well.I pull and push what I can pull and push.The end of the day,I do my best and God do the rest.

Gurney Hotel Stay

2009-07-28T20:53:00.002+08:00

This is the whole bunch of people,some of them went back while the rest have a stay in Gurney Hotel.I'm not in this photo because they took it before I went.I reached there at 11.40pm!Haha!=) Have a good time there.Indeed,God provide me the strength all the way.Yeah,it's all the way!

Gurney Hotel

2009-07-18T02:52:00.003+08:00

Well well well,I know now is nearly 3am!Don't scold or nag me ok?Haha.Because right now I'm in Gurney Hotel with my classmate!!It's one of my classmate's birthday.She invited us to go for hotel stay.So yeah,here I am and some of them playing cards while the others chit-chating.For me,I got nothing to do.But I enjoy doing stuff even this time.Though the next day I need to wake up at 5.30am,so that I'm able to go for Leaders' Morning Prayer.You might think that I'm crazy.But you know what.I just want to spend my time with my schoolmates.Though I need to sacrifice my sleeps but I know God gonna provide me the strength.I enjoy and have joy doing that.So joy of the Lord will be my strength!!I know tomorrow I will stay awake during morning prayer!Hehe.I will upload the photos soon.So yeah!Goodnight!=)

Voluntary vs Passive

2009-07-16T15:04:00.003+08:00

Voluntary in mandarin is 主动(zhu dong) while for passive is 被动(bei dong).Wow,I can open a mandarin class already!=) Of course I thank God for such a gift that I'm able to know different kind of dialect or languages so that I'm able to connect with different tongue of people.Back to my topic.I think different people have different kind of personalities.You might be the one who is voluntary kind.On the other hand,you might be the one who being passive,need someone who like voluntary to push you.So,now here's the question whether a person who is voluntary better or passive better?For my opinion,I think half voluntary and passive better.There are always pros and cons.As an example,I think a guy should has more voluntary personality.I saw a case where the guy quite passive.The girl always need to push him,the girl need to ask or do to him first.I think in a relationship guy should take the lead,not the girl.Eventually,the relationship got a lots of problems.Be the man,do the right thing!But there is no perfection in this world,there are still guys are being passived.If you are a girl or guy,I'm not sidding girl's side.I think girl sometimes should be voluntary as well.If someone misunderstanding you,you should automatically or voluntary to explain to that person.If not,problem will never solved.Sometimes I do tired being voluntary.That's my honest.Because somehow some people will just take advantage on you.But God said 'love your neighbour'.Yes!Love my neighbour!So,I love all of my friends,family,and enemies.But seriously,I don't have enemies.So how to love my enemies?Because everyone is like my friends and families!So,yeah lar!I'm still choose to be voluntary for some cases but right now I'm learning to being passived for some cases.
You still have a choice to being voluntary or passived.That's just my view.=)

He Gonna Move It Move It

2009-07-13T21:02:00.004+08:00

God is moving!Seriously!Here's the story that happened:
A girl that quite against Christian.Especially me!I also don't know why.The way she talk to me is so much different compared to other of my friends.Last Wednesday,she actually goes one round and shoot me when we were talking something about buying a present.She goes one round and said not everyone need to be Christian even though you are.I was like ??? How it connects?My anger just raise up,my heart was so fire and angry at her.After cooling myself down,I manage not to let my anger take over my mind or curse her.I told God in my heart and spirit 'God,do something in her life!!Let you be in her life!!I will pray for her everyday before school!!And ask God for wisdom!I will love her!'So,here it goes the next day which is Thursday,to cut the story short.She came to me and ask me 'You memorise the whole bible?Isit all about Jesus in the bible?Last time I read some before because of kindergarten.'So I start from A-Z Christianity,what is inside the bible and etc.In the bible is all real stories!!Awesome man!Through this case,I learn 2 things : keep praying!!Prayer works!!Pray Until You See Something Happen!!The second thing is if you want to see revolution(a change take place),it's start with LOVE!!Will keep praying!!Woohoo~
Today,I got my STPM Muet Results.I retake actually.The first time I took is last year and I only get Band 3.Then,I retake this year,in my heart was saying gone case already because the paper is harder compare to the first time.But still didn't really care about it and just trust God what is HE going to do.I done my best and HE will do the rest for me though I know I'm super poor in my grammar.And as I being faithful to HIM,HE bless me with Band 4!!Isin't awesome!I just can't believe what I get!Too happy!!Rejoicing!!=)
May you receive the same blessing as well!!Love you folks!

One Thing

2009-07-08T22:12:00.003+08:00

U6B1

The one thing!There are a lots of reasons that we love something.So,the one thing I love about my school is I love my class!My classmates are awesome women and men!!First,they are encourager.Though they are non-christian but they are encourager!We encourage each other in studies,we ask each other questions,we do not look down on people that poor in their studies but help them,we even scold or say those who are lazy because we want see them success!We joke around,we talk nonsense topics,we joke with our teacher.Our form teacher is great!Her name is Mrs. Hong Yan Meei.She is 28 years old.Sometimes we joke with her when she want to get pregnant and stuff.She is caring and loving.She teach us Mathematics with patients.Sometimes we complain to her why so tough and things around the school.I love her a lots!I lost my Mathematics textbook few weeks ago and I couldn't do my homework.I told her,then she was like why left in class.Last Saturday I saw her in school,I greeted her and she told me that she got extra Mathematic textbook,so I no need to buy or photostat but need to return back to her after STPM.In Chung Ling,teachers and students are like friends!There is a classmate that I want to appreciate a lots.He is a very understandable friend.Though I'm not a really close friend but I love his spirit!He is encourager,friendly,understanding.As he knows I am a Christian,I always busying with church activities,so when come to school activities that fall on weekends,he will excuse me to join because he said he understand.So,I would like to give him a *salute* .Besides that,my classmates will come together to play badminton or hikking.Sometimes my class can be very noisy and also can be very quiet.That's what I love about!I enjoy in my Form 6 life in Chung Ling a lots!My prayer for my school is I'm able to do something for this school as I just left 4 more months in this school!!Chung Ling actually rocks and U6B1 my class rocks!

My Dad's Voice

2009-07-06T14:59:00.003+08:00

As a daughter,definitely can recognize my earthly dad's voice.Whether he is in a bad mood or good mood,through his voice I can sense it.Why?Because get use to it after so many years and I'm able to recognize it.Last Saturday is the day we launched Recess Revo in Chung Ling!Before the night,when I'm trying to sleep,my heartbeat actually jump very fast.I'm excited on what God gonna do in my school!Yeap,that's my school!The heartbeat kept jumping so fast about half an hour while actually I'm very sleepy that time.Suddenly,I sense that and know that Holy Spirit is telling me remember to take extension wire!!Then I was like ??? because I thought it should be not needed the next day.But Holy Spirit just kept reminding till I said 'Ok,I'll remember and make sure I bring tomorrow.' then I slept peacefully.Next day woke up,after shower and preparing to school,I went to my store room to get the extension wire with 1 switch only which is inside the vacuum cleaner box.Then,I saw another extension wire with 2 switch.I'm asking myself 'when did my house own this extension wire?Like never see it before.Do I need to bring it also?I think enough right,somemore so heavy.' But the end,I just bring both in case!!End up,during set up the laptop and projector before Recess Revo,we seriously needed two extension wire!!I was like phew!!Praise to God! Some people might feel it is just a small matter but guess what,that's means I'm practising hearing HIS voice even small things.God doesn't speak to you big things only but even small things that placed in your daily life.Everythings are important things in God's eyes even when you think that it's just a small matter.Sometimes are quite shock,freaky but it's enjoyable and lovely.=)

*Cik Melody,sorry ya last night went off with my laptop on and couldn't reply your msn.How's everything?Miss me?Haha!Forsure lar!I miss you a lots!You take care ya!=)

Recess Revo

2009-07-04T14:09:00.014+08:00

REVOLUTION BEGINS WITH ME AND YOU!

Ring!!Ring!!Ring!!It's time to school!It's time for RR rock Chung Ling for Jesus!
Today is the day!4th of July!Seriously,I can't believe it just happened!Recess Revo kick started today in Chung Ling!Honestly,we send the letter to JPN during Monday only!We do not do any proposal as for your information Chung Ling is like a company.Anything you want to organize or bring people into Chung Ling,you need to type proposal,send letter to JPN,get the approval of our PK2.I'm currently working with Joshua,back him up whatever he need.He went to our PK2 with our CF teacher advisor to get approval on letting Pragas and his team(Re-evolvers) into school without doing any proposal.Because I felt that it's time to let the school know that CF club is not a normal club others do.Yeap!And we get his signature and approval!Awesome!Everything is prepared within 1 week.Super tight and honestly,I'm worried.I worried things can't go smoothly.But God said HE is in control of everything.Yeap,indeed HE controlled everthing today!From the ice-breaker,worship and the sharing session part which done by Pragas and Darren.Most of them catched up the fire and vision!20 people signed up!It's a great start.But what I want to see is we will have a great end(I mean for me when I left).I know Recess Revo will pass on from one generation to another generation.Something is taking place in Chung Ling!
Guess what,actually last night I'm so excited till couldn't sleep.I slept at 2am and woke up at 4am.Just excited about it!Before I sleep,a simple thing Holy Spirit reminds me to bring that is extension wire and plug!So,before go to school I keep reminds myself to bring.I thought my house got 1 extension wire only,who knows I saw another one which have two switches.So I just bring two to school.And thank God I bring!Because the laptop and projector is not long enough to the classroom's switch!!Even simple things Holy Spirit will ask you to do or bring.Just be sensitive to it and don't neglect it!Pragas shared on Recess Revo and PCF.You would like wondering what is PCF.P-Passion;C-Commitment;F-Faith.When you have the PASSION to do something,you need to COMMIT yourself into that and at the same time you need to have FAITH in God on what you want to do for HIS kingdom!That's my prayer for our RR team that is we will have PCF and consistency!Show up!Stand up!Speak up!For Jesus Love you!!